My thought about "myself"?
to myself i couldn't think of anything... because i never expect what i want to be in life... just like to live simple and have the other part to be with me being where or when doesn't matter to me anymore... it's not i do not have goals or dreams in life... in fact my goals and dreams were to be out of earth? but without the partner in life it makes me feel nothing would be satisfy... because life to me a partner is always the one to be trusted and to be shared with... and i'm stubborn for the one i choose because only them who are special to me... and to me they would be the one supporting me towards my goals... i would like people to judge me when they don't even know what/who i was... i could accept close friend objection/judge than an outsider... because they don't live my life, know my feeling and understand what i think... but if you ever wan to try understand me i'll be glad to have a long night awake just to exchange thoughts and ideas... and that's the only period i would accept judging/objection... i'm a person who might help guys more than girls? because in my life girls are always being bullied... although i was being a victim of a girl, it's the only small faction of girls that would do that... so i never take that incident to judge girls because each different person have different views... (so if you want to try understand me, Call me out for a drink ^-^)
My feeling?
today felt quite bad... because get to know that she really doesn't like my attitude? well attitude could change but i just don't know what attitude she doesn't like about... each person i face i would have different attitude... each group of people also have another attitude... so attitude could be change... stopping here...
17 July 2009
today woke up around 1.54PM! WOOT~ because had a bad cramp on both leg... at first was right... then after i clam it down my left leg cramp >.< maybe cycle too much and too far without any stretching... well muscle cramp means muscle growing again~ LOL... stomach cramp? six pack? LOL~ joking... well everyone should take care of yourself... today didn't go out due to the muscle aching... after i woke up couldn't even stand up right LOL~ then try to jio von and vin for a game of L4D~ but then... my arms cramp T.T muscle seriously cramps alot when i don't stretch after exercise... well played with them after my arms are better... they playing cheat! unlimited ammo~ well lucky i couldn't move my arms much LOL! okay that's all for today...
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Fixing the missing feels... (edited)
My thoughts about my "possibility"
possibility was made by each and every little thing you do... one small little thing that affect someone might make another possibility... even so leaders in the group are always a key role to make the turns of tide... making each and possibility they way they wished for... every little things counts when one effort was put into, every things adds up make another kind of possibility~ even things that isn't expected came to your way, don't let it pull down you... Make that counts and turn the tide...
My Feels?
hmm today had a long blog~ because like missed a day and want to fix the hole... hmm lately doesn't feel right... but i guess i should be feeling better after a long night talk with deston... su ku a little ba but isn't that much... just way too much to kept from people... well going to make it private on 21 july so please tag ur e-mail if you want to carry on reading~ it's still open for people who want to read it... and those who don't wish to see don't go tag your e-mail la... i also never ask you to read it if you think it's not right~ wa kaoz... this is a free to write blog lea... never even damage you and not also saying about you... NOT EVEN 1 POST WAS ABOUT YOU LA! you feel i was like you then be different from me lah~ it's not that i want to be like you! plus you aren't a faithful person to your gf... i'm totally unlike you! so shoo off if you think i was you...
Add-on?
can see some tigers are getting together more and more... but still yet not much of stroking on each other back... i'll hope they would... we have a (few?) leaders in our group... it means lots of key role too... but they all have a different role too... let's see, deston holds the key role of bringing laughter and joy plus he could bring the moody group of ours up! and kah yi plays the role for leading us to a better side and trying to bring us together, could be a laughter when she have quarrel with des... a natural leaders from the inside... hui xin is a role that is for them to hold when they're lost and make the path for them to follow or could i say the decision maker? she never know what she decide but she makes everyone decide to follow... and well, they have each more talent unfolded... let's talk about the rest? Ervin the bridge that lead us to von mei... his also the joy bringer like acting cute or make qian da face... also means he have lots of emotions to his face... von mei... the one who doesn't belong to our group in class... but still she holds the control over ervin LOL~ Xiang the BAKEMONO! the tallest in class and also having a giant hand! LOL well that's what i felt about him too... doesn't show much about him because his also quite a follower... Jimson... the bubble boy~ but doesn't see him playing much bubble now... i still feel his still way too childish... maybe i still haven't gone much into him... but his still bring joy to us... jian hua the singer~ i love his song of tao zhe! wa haha... go K-box sure must have him... well also a follower in group still... ben neo ah gong? doing stuff looks like ah gong... a follower too... ben low the guai kia~ also another follower... he holds a little key to make us study~ gen jing... the COLDEST~ can never remember my name or just faking it? i wonder~ as also another follower in group... that end the group member...
16 July 2009
company me till jalan kayu ask him chat abit more because i really need someone to su ku... too much stuff to say but still say what i could only say... then a sudden question i was wondering about myself~ it was about him and SOMEONE ELSE! haha... it bugged him the whole night too! LOL~ we chat there for 2 hours and change to another shop because the one didn't have KOPI-O KUO? after changing we carry-on chatting a little more... around 4am plus went to seng kang but bottle drinks and went to seletar damp and sat there waiting for sun rise? LOL mom cook my dinner but never go back to eat it >.< well at least now only deston is the only person in singapore now who have the longest night outside with me 1 to 1? LOL~ sounds so GAY! well the others who did already went oversea and lost contact... that's life anyway... memories is what it's left and never fades... hmm we waited for the sun rise? but didn't get to see the sun because he have to cycle all the way back to seng kang~ i company him a short distance and rushed back home... was so tired and don't even dare to lie down the bed or rest my head... bathed and rushed to school... and was another late for the day again~ LOL! seriously my attendance was always late >.< reach school didn't sleep yet but fall to sleep when soh talk about boring subject again... after lesson went to eat at cafe 2... after they went to buy their food jimson came then i went to buy my food... after lunch LLA~ watch a video... well it some kind link to my words "2 kind of world, million kind of possibility" well enjoy-ed the SHIT stuff from the movie too... it's kind of vulgar and mental problems? so not for children under 12 or maybe 16... LOL~ after video went to sleep with ipod~ hahaz~ after lesson is RCT~ rct group test! first one to do then can go off after finishing~ well didn't go back after finishing... went around to help friend... kah yi TOOPID~ like never use the equ. before... like the basic also don't know... after they finish we go to cafe 1 for their dinner? i didn't eat because i haven't eat at home for so long... was too busy working or with friends that never seen so long already... well have LAME chats? after that went home lor... nothing happen on the way home... but went to sleep after reaching home... okay stopping here... now is my feeling and thoughts~
15 July 2009
hmm quite forgotten what i have done in the morning... that's why late for school... even for afternoon lesson too >.< well NWT wasn't any sweat for me anyway... just don't like doing static routing... too troublesome and complicated for most of them studying wireless tech... class ended soon after... and it's S&W next~ didn't go even though i wanted to play badminton... not much challenger to play with nowadays... but went to have lunch with deston... then ben came down with jian hua with a pissed off mood by S&W teacher LOL~ she doesn't want to mark their attendance although no matter how reasonable excuse they gave... after meals we headed home~ board the bus 31 with deston and hua hua~ haha... then hing came up not long after us... he and deston talk cock in the bus LOL~ well reach tam interchange and sat bus 969... a girl stand so close to me at the que for the bus... didn't notice untill i turn around... okay~ she was trying to use me to avoid 5 bastard trying to get her number... she's way too young for me anyway... about sec 3 or 4... LOL~ well board the bus and she sat beside me also... and the 5 bakeymono just behind us... i was very tired so i slept towards the window... scare later fall asleep kao dao ta ~.~ anyway drop off with her then walk home from yishun mrt >.< because the 5 bastard followed her... then broke off with her soon after she was near her house... Make it clear! i never take her number and ask her name >.< she's pretty but no thanks... just doing my daily favors for girls! haha... anyway don't think will even meet her again... after that walk home and change clothes went cycling to deston house... going to check the price for the food his going to buy... reach his house his aunt was there too? went to his room without him noticing me at his house already... he was playing his X-box, need for speed (most wanted)... when he crash to a car i shout press slow motion la! he kanna shocked LOL~ well use his computer for few mins becuase it was on anyway... then play his X-box because he don't know go do what already... after that play the career mode for him because he don't know how to evade the police for 9mins? LOL easy for me~ cleared it but i was busted because don't know what to do after evading the police chase after 9 mins going 10 >.< haha... anyway after that game we went to NTUC doing the price check... walking around there like idiots going back and forth~ hahaz... an hour later we completed the price check then i brought takoyaki~ and then went to a near-by LRT to top up his ezlink card... he went up and down the lift and tell me he never bring his card >.< i was about to have my tako down my mouth ~.~ anyway we cycle back to his house passing by compass point and he told me he want to draw money and top up his ez-link card after crossing the road before reaching the way to his house he brake and ask to U-turn... i shout at him~ SIAO AR! never bring ez-link card go for what? we both laugh LOL~ he went back home and i waited below without my hp... it was in his bag~ i waited about 30 mins then he came down with his clothes changed and telling me a lame thing... deston: "I smsed your phone saying i stomach pain and tell you to wait... after i went to the toilet i saw your hp in my bag and read the sms on your phone... i saw my own msg..." i was totally DIAO at him =.= anyway had the tako while waiting for him~ ENJOYED IT~ lolz... well i never mind to wait for someone for hours but not to the extend that after waiting so long then tell me couldn't come la... so relax des~ i don't mind~ went to compass point and wait for him outside listening to my music... after that went to his house and start counting the price for the BBQ stuff... well was abit over the budget for him because he was paying for all the food himself... lucky that he had $150 for NTUC... so cut down quite alot for him... he still have to fork out $230 at most... (i remember something... never help him include the tong price >.< tell him tomorrow ba... LOL~) after all the counting it was 11.28pm... ask him company me to jalan kayu LOL~ okay 16 july liao...
possibility was made by each and every little thing you do... one small little thing that affect someone might make another possibility... even so leaders in the group are always a key role to make the turns of tide... making each and possibility they way they wished for... every little things counts when one effort was put into, every things adds up make another kind of possibility~ even things that isn't expected came to your way, don't let it pull down you... Make that counts and turn the tide...
My Feels?
hmm today had a long blog~ because like missed a day and want to fix the hole... hmm lately doesn't feel right... but i guess i should be feeling better after a long night talk with deston... su ku a little ba but isn't that much... just way too much to kept from people... well going to make it private on 21 july so please tag ur e-mail if you want to carry on reading~ it's still open for people who want to read it... and those who don't wish to see don't go tag your e-mail la... i also never ask you to read it if you think it's not right~ wa kaoz... this is a free to write blog lea... never even damage you and not also saying about you... NOT EVEN 1 POST WAS ABOUT YOU LA! you feel i was like you then be different from me lah~ it's not that i want to be like you! plus you aren't a faithful person to your gf... i'm totally unlike you! so shoo off if you think i was you...
Add-on?
can see some tigers are getting together more and more... but still yet not much of stroking on each other back... i'll hope they would... we have a (few?) leaders in our group... it means lots of key role too... but they all have a different role too... let's see, deston holds the key role of bringing laughter and joy plus he could bring the moody group of ours up! and kah yi plays the role for leading us to a better side and trying to bring us together, could be a laughter when she have quarrel with des... a natural leaders from the inside... hui xin is a role that is for them to hold when they're lost and make the path for them to follow or could i say the decision maker? she never know what she decide but she makes everyone decide to follow... and well, they have each more talent unfolded... let's talk about the rest? Ervin the bridge that lead us to von mei... his also the joy bringer like acting cute or make qian da face... also means he have lots of emotions to his face... von mei... the one who doesn't belong to our group in class... but still she holds the control over ervin LOL~ Xiang the BAKEMONO! the tallest in class and also having a giant hand! LOL well that's what i felt about him too... doesn't show much about him because his also quite a follower... Jimson... the bubble boy~ but doesn't see him playing much bubble now... i still feel his still way too childish... maybe i still haven't gone much into him... but his still bring joy to us... jian hua the singer~ i love his song of tao zhe! wa haha... go K-box sure must have him... well also a follower in group still... ben neo ah gong? doing stuff looks like ah gong... a follower too... ben low the guai kia~ also another follower... he holds a little key to make us study~ gen jing... the COLDEST~ can never remember my name or just faking it? i wonder~ as also another follower in group... that end the group member...
16 July 2009
company me till jalan kayu ask him chat abit more because i really need someone to su ku... too much stuff to say but still say what i could only say... then a sudden question i was wondering about myself~ it was about him and SOMEONE ELSE! haha... it bugged him the whole night too! LOL~ we chat there for 2 hours and change to another shop because the one didn't have KOPI-O KUO? after changing we carry-on chatting a little more... around 4am plus went to seng kang but bottle drinks and went to seletar damp and sat there waiting for sun rise? LOL mom cook my dinner but never go back to eat it >.< well at least now only deston is the only person in singapore now who have the longest night outside with me 1 to 1? LOL~ sounds so GAY! well the others who did already went oversea and lost contact... that's life anyway... memories is what it's left and never fades... hmm we waited for the sun rise? but didn't get to see the sun because he have to cycle all the way back to seng kang~ i company him a short distance and rushed back home... was so tired and don't even dare to lie down the bed or rest my head... bathed and rushed to school... and was another late for the day again~ LOL! seriously my attendance was always late >.< reach school didn't sleep yet but fall to sleep when soh talk about boring subject again... after lesson went to eat at cafe 2... after they went to buy their food jimson came then i went to buy my food... after lunch LLA~ watch a video... well it some kind link to my words "2 kind of world, million kind of possibility" well enjoy-ed the SHIT stuff from the movie too... it's kind of vulgar and mental problems? so not for children under 12 or maybe 16... LOL~ after video went to sleep with ipod~ hahaz~ after lesson is RCT~ rct group test! first one to do then can go off after finishing~ well didn't go back after finishing... went around to help friend... kah yi TOOPID~ like never use the equ. before... like the basic also don't know... after they finish we go to cafe 1 for their dinner? i didn't eat because i haven't eat at home for so long... was too busy working or with friends that never seen so long already... well have LAME chats? after that went home lor... nothing happen on the way home... but went to sleep after reaching home... okay stopping here... now is my feeling and thoughts~
15 July 2009
hmm quite forgotten what i have done in the morning... that's why late for school... even for afternoon lesson too >.< well NWT wasn't any sweat for me anyway... just don't like doing static routing... too troublesome and complicated for most of them studying wireless tech... class ended soon after... and it's S&W next~ didn't go even though i wanted to play badminton... not much challenger to play with nowadays... but went to have lunch with deston... then ben came down with jian hua with a pissed off mood by S&W teacher LOL~ she doesn't want to mark their attendance although no matter how reasonable excuse they gave... after meals we headed home~ board the bus 31 with deston and hua hua~ haha... then hing came up not long after us... he and deston talk cock in the bus LOL~ well reach tam interchange and sat bus 969... a girl stand so close to me at the que for the bus... didn't notice untill i turn around... okay~ she was trying to use me to avoid 5 bastard trying to get her number... she's way too young for me anyway... about sec 3 or 4... LOL~ well board the bus and she sat beside me also... and the 5 bakeymono just behind us... i was very tired so i slept towards the window... scare later fall asleep kao dao ta ~.~ anyway drop off with her then walk home from yishun mrt >.< because the 5 bastard followed her... then broke off with her soon after she was near her house... Make it clear! i never take her number and ask her name >.< she's pretty but no thanks... just doing my daily favors for girls! haha... anyway don't think will even meet her again... after that walk home and change clothes went cycling to deston house... going to check the price for the food his going to buy... reach his house his aunt was there too? went to his room without him noticing me at his house already... he was playing his X-box, need for speed (most wanted)... when he crash to a car i shout press slow motion la! he kanna shocked LOL~ well use his computer for few mins becuase it was on anyway... then play his X-box because he don't know go do what already... after that play the career mode for him because he don't know how to evade the police for 9mins? LOL easy for me~ cleared it but i was busted because don't know what to do after evading the police chase after 9 mins going 10 >.< haha... anyway after that game we went to NTUC doing the price check... walking around there like idiots going back and forth~ hahaz... an hour later we completed the price check then i brought takoyaki~ and then went to a near-by LRT to top up his ezlink card... he went up and down the lift and tell me he never bring his card >.< i was about to have my tako down my mouth ~.~ anyway we cycle back to his house passing by compass point and he told me he want to draw money and top up his ez-link card after crossing the road before reaching the way to his house he brake and ask to U-turn... i shout at him~ SIAO AR! never bring ez-link card go for what? we both laugh LOL~ he went back home and i waited below without my hp... it was in his bag~ i waited about 30 mins then he came down with his clothes changed and telling me a lame thing... deston: "I smsed your phone saying i stomach pain and tell you to wait... after i went to the toilet i saw your hp in my bag and read the sms on your phone... i saw my own msg..." i was totally DIAO at him =.= anyway had the tako while waiting for him~ ENJOYED IT~ lolz... well i never mind to wait for someone for hours but not to the extend that after waiting so long then tell me couldn't come la... so relax des~ i don't mind~ went to compass point and wait for him outside listening to my music... after that went to his house and start counting the price for the BBQ stuff... well was abit over the budget for him because he was paying for all the food himself... lucky that he had $150 for NTUC... so cut down quite alot for him... he still have to fork out $230 at most... (i remember something... never help him include the tong price >.< tell him tomorrow ba... LOL~) after all the counting it was 11.28pm... ask him company me to jalan kayu LOL~ okay 16 july liao...
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I wonder how much have i hidden...
My thoughts on skill of life...
people does have skill in each and most would have them display... let's take pool for example... most people play with friend and have the skill to go in every ball they hit... and you use it on your friend... would it feel hurtful if your friend was so weak? just to make yourself feel wonderful for winning over someone that weak to feel satisfy? if you're doing that to your friend, he/she might not like it or might give up playing that game... wasn't this breaking up friendship? people don't really go into the loser feeling when they're winning... so try feel them before you win them... skills are not to be displayed when not in competition... sometimes playing with friend just let them winning isn't that bad either... it build up their confidence and bondage on friendship isn't it better that just winning them?
My Feelings?
ehh... feeling pain? kind of pain that hurts more than physically... want to concern? can't show it out... Want to care? can't show it out... can't do anything also... feeling so worthless... my existence isn't anything but just being an extra object for everyone... considering going over to other side now... at least my existence there might be much more acceptable? whatever lah...
14 July 2009
today woke up early but went back to sleep >.< getting more lazy to get up already... i try stop this habit asap... well went to school around 8.50am... reach there teacher was about to end his lesson le >.< anyway got my attendance... soh asked us to do chapter 1 & 2 for the cisco? arh~ hate to do this boring stuff... well had lunch after lesson? was kind of not hungry or was i moody again? anyway had samba chicken rice down... after eating ervin, jian hua and me went to co-op shop because ervin want buy drinks there... then we head to pool~ people there all CMI... look at them play i was like brr~ come on my left hand can hit better than that... only watched the uncle playing there! he was great~ hmm thought of what to write on my feelings and thoughts suddenly~ then the rest came to pool also... didn't thought of they would come here... well went to wait for deston because he come for afternoon lesson~ then ervin suddenly came up looking for me? anyway deston came and he went for his lunch... then had our next lesson and i just couldn't glance to the darn direction... so used a bag to block it... was feeling kind of useless like can see through the bag >.<... anyway play FB because what soh was teaching have already been taught before by suen... had a little secret chat with johnathan ^^ si jia yi keep reading our little secret! BLA~ she wont say out right? hahaz... then don't know why jia yi and johnathan start quarreling then become cusing each other >.< wu liaoz... after that went for RCT... the most boring lesson ever... nothing much to learn just slacking around waiting for time to pass... planned few stuff for deston chalet~ i guess tomorrow i will start to think of event for him le... went home after school was damn tired and fell asleep in bus knocking on the glass a few times >.< woke up with my right side of my head in pain... reach yishun and got off at the market buying some stuff for dinner... and also honey star + koko crunch LOL! ate a simple dinner and honey star because was still hungry... well play computer a little and bathed... around 9 plus feel like going for a cycle... as usual was feeling bad... all i could do was to pretend to see nothing and act like nothing? i really couldn't do that anymore... went cycling around and stop at seletar damp having the breeze... then a big group of cyclist cycle pass me and jio me to go cycle with them~ i joined in! waited for all of the to pass me then i cycle to catch up... from last to the first and first to can't be caught up >.< waited at jalan kayu for them... then they broke up already... some of them went home and the rest went to my fav. tou hua shop~ the auntie always give me free yu tiao! haha~ last time in camp always visit their shop to buy tuo hua for my camp mates... then cycle back to camp LOL~ auntie see me so good always give my stuff extra or free XD so good right? hahaz~ well brought yu tiao and a drink and off to home! going home alone enjoying yu tiao and music! how can i miss out JJ song dou jiang yu tiao? HAHA~ well got back to seletar damp and walk from 1 end to another... slow walk and have all my events passed run through again... so much to think of but no one to share with? LOL~ okay then i went back home after that... and start writing this blog le... hmm... 2 kind of worlds million kinds of possibility~ i wonder who i have told this to... okay good night readers~ Must tag ar! so many mystery counts on the counter but not even a tag >.< i'm not wise... i just have more knowledge only...
people does have skill in each and most would have them display... let's take pool for example... most people play with friend and have the skill to go in every ball they hit... and you use it on your friend... would it feel hurtful if your friend was so weak? just to make yourself feel wonderful for winning over someone that weak to feel satisfy? if you're doing that to your friend, he/she might not like it or might give up playing that game... wasn't this breaking up friendship? people don't really go into the loser feeling when they're winning... so try feel them before you win them... skills are not to be displayed when not in competition... sometimes playing with friend just let them winning isn't that bad either... it build up their confidence and bondage on friendship isn't it better that just winning them?
My Feelings?
ehh... feeling pain? kind of pain that hurts more than physically... want to concern? can't show it out... Want to care? can't show it out... can't do anything also... feeling so worthless... my existence isn't anything but just being an extra object for everyone... considering going over to other side now... at least my existence there might be much more acceptable? whatever lah...
14 July 2009
today woke up early but went back to sleep >.< getting more lazy to get up already... i try stop this habit asap... well went to school around 8.50am... reach there teacher was about to end his lesson le >.< anyway got my attendance... soh asked us to do chapter 1 & 2 for the cisco? arh~ hate to do this boring stuff... well had lunch after lesson? was kind of not hungry or was i moody again? anyway had samba chicken rice down... after eating ervin, jian hua and me went to co-op shop because ervin want buy drinks there... then we head to pool~ people there all CMI... look at them play i was like brr~ come on my left hand can hit better than that... only watched the uncle playing there! he was great~ hmm thought of what to write on my feelings and thoughts suddenly~ then the rest came to pool also... didn't thought of they would come here... well went to wait for deston because he come for afternoon lesson~ then ervin suddenly came up looking for me? anyway deston came and he went for his lunch... then had our next lesson and i just couldn't glance to the darn direction... so used a bag to block it... was feeling kind of useless like can see through the bag >.<... anyway play FB because what soh was teaching have already been taught before by suen... had a little secret chat with johnathan ^^ si jia yi keep reading our little secret! BLA~ she wont say out right? hahaz... then don't know why jia yi and johnathan start quarreling then become cusing each other >.< wu liaoz... after that went for RCT... the most boring lesson ever... nothing much to learn just slacking around waiting for time to pass... planned few stuff for deston chalet~ i guess tomorrow i will start to think of event for him le... went home after school was damn tired and fell asleep in bus knocking on the glass a few times >.< woke up with my right side of my head in pain... reach yishun and got off at the market buying some stuff for dinner... and also honey star + koko crunch LOL! ate a simple dinner and honey star because was still hungry... well play computer a little and bathed... around 9 plus feel like going for a cycle... as usual was feeling bad... all i could do was to pretend to see nothing and act like nothing? i really couldn't do that anymore... went cycling around and stop at seletar damp having the breeze... then a big group of cyclist cycle pass me and jio me to go cycle with them~ i joined in! waited for all of the to pass me then i cycle to catch up... from last to the first and first to can't be caught up >.< waited at jalan kayu for them... then they broke up already... some of them went home and the rest went to my fav. tou hua shop~ the auntie always give me free yu tiao! haha~ last time in camp always visit their shop to buy tuo hua for my camp mates... then cycle back to camp LOL~ auntie see me so good always give my stuff extra or free XD so good right? hahaz~ well brought yu tiao and a drink and off to home! going home alone enjoying yu tiao and music! how can i miss out JJ song dou jiang yu tiao? HAHA~ well got back to seletar damp and walk from 1 end to another... slow walk and have all my events passed run through again... so much to think of but no one to share with? LOL~ okay then i went back home after that... and start writing this blog le... hmm... 2 kind of worlds million kinds of possibility~ i wonder who i have told this to... okay good night readers~ Must tag ar! so many mystery counts on the counter but not even a tag >.< i'm not wise... i just have more knowledge only...
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Stay or go?
not writing thoughts again for today...
My Feeling?
today wasn't feeling right... due to things doesn't goes well through life... don't know what to do much for it... just let it be... just waiting for the chance anyway... chance are like so slim... but don't want to give up either... well, friends left in singapore isn't alot now... even there is but all doesn't know me well... all have them have stuff to busy with and somebody to company with... Arh~ having GF is so Xin Fu... always could see you when ever you look for her or she look for you... just wanted to see each other often and have fun anywhere she goes... not really everyday... but at least she could share stuff with... damn tried in living here with full of different kinds of people especially people who always betray or stab you, etc... i just want a simple life with a partner that could last forever... stopping right here now... no mood to carry on...
13 July 2009
today woke up at 8am but felt so sick so went back to sleep... woke up by gelina calling my handphone >.< it's was 11.48am? asking me where had i put the cleaning cloth... LOL~ well she found it anyway... so then i went back to sleep again... woke up again because e.sister came to my room asking me why internet no connection~ haiz... stupid problem again... anyway fixed it and she said to my y.sister she wanted to go daiso at sebwang shopping mall... y.sis took so long to decide... so off we went to daiso around 1.40pm... walked there and went daiso first... they brought snacks so did i :d well we went to the giant and shopped... well nothing much there because we already brought what we wanted at daiso? well went to splash park just to see how it look like... well no luck no water at the time... it's on from 11am to 2pm and 5pm to 8pm... lol well we had our dinner around 3.50? LOL! a little too early le ba... anyway i treat them the meal... it's been so long since i treat them a meal... because y.sis went china and e.sis is busy with school and work too... well i had hikori chicken, y.sis have teriyaki chicken and e.sis have fried fish filet... we exchanged our food too LOL~ it was very full~ actually y.sis pon school today! HAHA~ i knew she couldn't be having holiday now... everybody started school already... after dinner we went down to the cake shop and brought 2 mufin and a curry bread... because the muffin smell DAMN nice... my treat again~ we didn't eat right away because the shop casher told us to heat it up with oven for 30sec if we're going home... than e.sis saw a sign flag saying thiff shop? everything sold there was a second hand stuff... was close on monday~ LOL nice timing! or else both sis wont stop shopping... LOL! went home straight after that but we didn't eat the muffin... they use their computer and i fell asleep... i couldn't push myself more due to the sickness... after sleeping for almost an hour plus i woke up and was feeling a little better than just now... both sis was sleeping including dad... didn't notice when he was back home... so i went to play mini games... after few rounds e.sis woke up and i call her to heat up the muffin! LOL~ she toasted it instead of using the oven!!! well the muffin's is great! 1 was a chocolate and the other was blueberry! we all preferred chocolate muffin! LOL~ sure would bring my gf to eat all food i felt it's great~ ahh ahh~ well went for cycling soon after having the great muffin! LOL... wasn't feeling great... cycle all around my fav. place... but still don't feel any better... (write in feelings later...) went home with 2 ramily chicken burgers... Grabble them down while watching old drama... linda called and ask me to work on thursday night =.= well accepted it... friday not working anyway... okay stopping here now... good night~
My Feeling?
today wasn't feeling right... due to things doesn't goes well through life... don't know what to do much for it... just let it be... just waiting for the chance anyway... chance are like so slim... but don't want to give up either... well, friends left in singapore isn't alot now... even there is but all doesn't know me well... all have them have stuff to busy with and somebody to company with... Arh~ having GF is so Xin Fu... always could see you when ever you look for her or she look for you... just wanted to see each other often and have fun anywhere she goes... not really everyday... but at least she could share stuff with... damn tried in living here with full of different kinds of people especially people who always betray or stab you, etc... i just want a simple life with a partner that could last forever... stopping right here now... no mood to carry on...
13 July 2009
today woke up at 8am but felt so sick so went back to sleep... woke up by gelina calling my handphone >.< it's was 11.48am? asking me where had i put the cleaning cloth... LOL~ well she found it anyway... so then i went back to sleep again... woke up again because e.sister came to my room asking me why internet no connection~ haiz... stupid problem again... anyway fixed it and she said to my y.sister she wanted to go daiso at sebwang shopping mall... y.sis took so long to decide... so off we went to daiso around 1.40pm... walked there and went daiso first... they brought snacks so did i :d well we went to the giant and shopped... well nothing much there because we already brought what we wanted at daiso? well went to splash park just to see how it look like... well no luck no water at the time... it's on from 11am to 2pm and 5pm to 8pm... lol well we had our dinner around 3.50? LOL! a little too early le ba... anyway i treat them the meal... it's been so long since i treat them a meal... because y.sis went china and e.sis is busy with school and work too... well i had hikori chicken, y.sis have teriyaki chicken and e.sis have fried fish filet... we exchanged our food too LOL~ it was very full~ actually y.sis pon school today! HAHA~ i knew she couldn't be having holiday now... everybody started school already... after dinner we went down to the cake shop and brought 2 mufin and a curry bread... because the muffin smell DAMN nice... my treat again~ we didn't eat right away because the shop casher told us to heat it up with oven for 30sec if we're going home... than e.sis saw a sign flag saying thiff shop? everything sold there was a second hand stuff... was close on monday~ LOL nice timing! or else both sis wont stop shopping... LOL! went home straight after that but we didn't eat the muffin... they use their computer and i fell asleep... i couldn't push myself more due to the sickness... after sleeping for almost an hour plus i woke up and was feeling a little better than just now... both sis was sleeping including dad... didn't notice when he was back home... so i went to play mini games... after few rounds e.sis woke up and i call her to heat up the muffin! LOL~ she toasted it instead of using the oven!!! well the muffin's is great! 1 was a chocolate and the other was blueberry! we all preferred chocolate muffin! LOL~ sure would bring my gf to eat all food i felt it's great~ ahh ahh~ well went for cycling soon after having the great muffin! LOL... wasn't feeling great... cycle all around my fav. place... but still don't feel any better... (write in feelings later...) went home with 2 ramily chicken burgers... Grabble them down while watching old drama... linda called and ask me to work on thursday night =.= well accepted it... friday not working anyway... okay stopping here now... good night~
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Not being lonely anymore?
not writing my thoughts for this post... can't get anything to write...
My Feelings?
i'm not sure why i felt so empty... because pei pei gone off? well hope it's what i said... anyway i don't like people to assume or comment on me when they don't even know me more than my friend... they do not have the right to judge someone when they have not even seen much of that person... so they should at least know that person before giving comments about them... okay stopping it here...
12 July 2009
woke up VERY EARLY! 5.30AM! was trying to sleep but couldn't due to feeling unwell... want to call linda to tell her don't feel like working today... but in the end i still drag myself to work... went off with mom to work... today she working at suntec~ talk with mom alot? LOL~ after reaching isetan i was like the first promoter to reach there >.< i punch my card 10 mins later... but the time i punch was 9.33am! i was like cleaning there alone... SI queenie talk behind my back! say i sot diao come so early... well told them i came with mom lor~ then we chatted a little and the hei mian shen came out showing an unhappy face of course... see her face like ruining my day and make me feel even more sick... but the day was okay... li li not here~ level 4 peace world! that's what the aunties said LOL~ had lunch with Nalina at Taka... had vege meal with her... because she's a vegetarian... we have lots of chats on the way to anywhere LOL~ she kept buying me drinks siar! keep telling her i pay myself but she always buy the drinks when i was in toilet or when i was on the phone with pei pei mei... she's going off to new zealand today le... damn it... now all my close one's isn't in singapore anymore... feeling empty... she didn't tell me she was going off today because she don't want to cry before parting with me... haiz... now i left with von mei? ai ya that 1 don't even understand me... anyway i went back to work and was wondering around like i always do to pass time... it was way better than in taka... the time here was like faster than normal... dinner time had arrive in no time and we went to lucky plaza for dinner this time... was damn crowded... had my meal but nalina didn't have her dinner... she went to buy tidbits... and we sat outside isetan having our rest and she eating her snacks~ she keep forcing me to have some of her snacks >.< well ate 3 piece because i was acting like eating alot and slowly LOL~ soon after we went back to work but was totally like no customer? so i went to fold tower for isetan LOL~ time pass quickly and i have endure my sick through the day! quickly go home and rest myself a little before writing this blog and do some stuff... don't think i could go to school due to unwell... okay i'll be stopping here...
11 July 2009
woke up about 10 plus by linda calling me to take over deston due to his not feeling well... and have to reach there my 1pm? so took my own sweet time preparing and used computer~ when i was there deston look VERY FINE! he just injurt his arm not really sick =.= well we had an hour plus for him to pump in all information about his counter~ didn't really remember all of it... because it's abit too rushy to remember all stuff... but at least i got quite a few points going through it all myself... about 2.13pm deston went off already... quite a number of customer but still bores me... because the stupid manager keep passing-by my place telling me to server customer when the customer already told me he would like to look around... damn it... i really hate stupid people keep telling me to do stuff i already had done... she thought i first day promoter sia~ *slaps her!* never even ask then assume i'm a new promoter... anyway she didn't appear anymore after i argue with her... and had dinner about 5? went down to B2 hunting for food... and to the food festa to look about? well brought a box of tako and that's for dinner >.< not even half full for me... it's okay no mood to eat also... around 5.50 went back to work? na~ was walking around the counter like i was in isetan! lol... well time was passing like an hour... but when i turn to the clock it has only passed 10 MINS! WTH~ it was the worst nightmare in taka... the time seem to me way too slow to me... deston still tell me kua za bor~ kua le bo feel siar... i must be GAY! LOL~ went to the toilet 3 times because went to chat with some friend... and the time passing is still the same! Ar lahs... so sick of taka now... i wonder why deston like taka so much... after work went home liao~ then brought fishball noodle for father... walk all the way home... that's all for the day... haiz... sick already...
My Feelings?
i'm not sure why i felt so empty... because pei pei gone off? well hope it's what i said... anyway i don't like people to assume or comment on me when they don't even know me more than my friend... they do not have the right to judge someone when they have not even seen much of that person... so they should at least know that person before giving comments about them... okay stopping it here...
12 July 2009
woke up VERY EARLY! 5.30AM! was trying to sleep but couldn't due to feeling unwell... want to call linda to tell her don't feel like working today... but in the end i still drag myself to work... went off with mom to work... today she working at suntec~ talk with mom alot? LOL~ after reaching isetan i was like the first promoter to reach there >.< i punch my card 10 mins later... but the time i punch was 9.33am! i was like cleaning there alone... SI queenie talk behind my back! say i sot diao come so early... well told them i came with mom lor~ then we chatted a little and the hei mian shen came out showing an unhappy face of course... see her face like ruining my day and make me feel even more sick... but the day was okay... li li not here~ level 4 peace world! that's what the aunties said LOL~ had lunch with Nalina at Taka... had vege meal with her... because she's a vegetarian... we have lots of chats on the way to anywhere LOL~ she kept buying me drinks siar! keep telling her i pay myself but she always buy the drinks when i was in toilet or when i was on the phone with pei pei mei... she's going off to new zealand today le... damn it... now all my close one's isn't in singapore anymore... feeling empty... she didn't tell me she was going off today because she don't want to cry before parting with me... haiz... now i left with von mei? ai ya that 1 don't even understand me... anyway i went back to work and was wondering around like i always do to pass time... it was way better than in taka... the time here was like faster than normal... dinner time had arrive in no time and we went to lucky plaza for dinner this time... was damn crowded... had my meal but nalina didn't have her dinner... she went to buy tidbits... and we sat outside isetan having our rest and she eating her snacks~ she keep forcing me to have some of her snacks >.< well ate 3 piece because i was acting like eating alot and slowly LOL~ soon after we went back to work but was totally like no customer? so i went to fold tower for isetan LOL~ time pass quickly and i have endure my sick through the day! quickly go home and rest myself a little before writing this blog and do some stuff... don't think i could go to school due to unwell... okay i'll be stopping here...
11 July 2009
woke up about 10 plus by linda calling me to take over deston due to his not feeling well... and have to reach there my 1pm? so took my own sweet time preparing and used computer~ when i was there deston look VERY FINE! he just injurt his arm not really sick =.= well we had an hour plus for him to pump in all information about his counter~ didn't really remember all of it... because it's abit too rushy to remember all stuff... but at least i got quite a few points going through it all myself... about 2.13pm deston went off already... quite a number of customer but still bores me... because the stupid manager keep passing-by my place telling me to server customer when the customer already told me he would like to look around... damn it... i really hate stupid people keep telling me to do stuff i already had done... she thought i first day promoter sia~ *slaps her!* never even ask then assume i'm a new promoter... anyway she didn't appear anymore after i argue with her... and had dinner about 5? went down to B2 hunting for food... and to the food festa to look about? well brought a box of tako and that's for dinner >.< not even half full for me... it's okay no mood to eat also... around 5.50 went back to work? na~ was walking around the counter like i was in isetan! lol... well time was passing like an hour... but when i turn to the clock it has only passed 10 MINS! WTH~ it was the worst nightmare in taka... the time seem to me way too slow to me... deston still tell me kua za bor~ kua le bo feel siar... i must be GAY! LOL~ went to the toilet 3 times because went to chat with some friend... and the time passing is still the same! Ar lahs... so sick of taka now... i wonder why deston like taka so much... after work went home liao~ then brought fishball noodle for father... walk all the way home... that's all for the day... haiz... sick already...
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