hi readers... sorry didn't update my blog yesterday... wasn't really having the mood of doing that...

so fast it's going into weekend... i suppose to work but not anymore... getting bored at home for days... cleaning here and there =.= sleeping late like every night playing games that already bores me...

yaya... i know i'm getting emo again hahaz... just couldn't take it being lonely... it's finally the 4th year... of being alone or single if it means...

Arh ah~ why am i counting useless stuff... well i'm looking forward now... but it seems that it wasn't ready... still waiting...

sometimes people doesn't get to understand me... what i'm doing or what i'm thinking... anything need a reason to be done? then so be it...

i only trust, believe and reach out for those i choose... i would never regret nor suspect, because they're what i've understands and believed in...

everything has a point of it being there... just look at it in a different ways, it might show... and doing something need no reason for... it's something which that person think it's right to be done...

just remember... nobody could ever see what others had been through... even they had the same thinking, but surely there will be a time where both doesn't think the same...

going off now~ good night...

Tree is regrowing again :D


New beach/park would be build there...
it means my old playground is gone >.<


just took for fun LOL...
life is like a road with cliff... lose a step and you might fall off...

i'm tired...

Welcome back dear readers! today didn't have much to write... because i didn't step out of house... i'm going into an insane rotting speed! someone help! just date me out!!!

Had been wondering for the past few days... why i imagine things that i hope for just to push myself... it's quite a tiring thing and after i stop imagine it, i felt somehow lonely and mood-less for what ever i'm doing... By watching drama/anime are just jealous about their story... although i felt the up and downs for the character it's somewhat came to me that i'm still alone... my main point was, how long am i going to imagine of myself being love? another year? haiz... couldn't have more energy to imagine more that few day anymore...

Changed blog song to chinese~ tired to search for english song/music now...

Wont be working as promoter i guess... it doesn't suit me? standing there waiting to serve? So sorry, couldn't do that~ for my current feelings, i would want to rush and work myself till i had no time to imagine...

Don't want the one's i love to give me hope if they doesn't have any feelings for me... i'm somebody who would make everything positive, someone who enjoy just being with the one's i love...
Anything could be destroy by the words from the one's i love... just simply draw a line from me or i would have another hope from/for the one's i love...

i'll be stopping here! Good night readers...


hard a hard time cleaning~
LOVE the result and another self satisfied day...


last night weather forecast was a rainy day! BUT! today it seems windy...

Clean Cleaning Clean-ed

HI~ changing a little of my post style again... today woke up late... was awake because feeling damn hot! lol... the sun burn got worst~ more red then last night... slack in bed till afternoon skipped breakfast and lunch... then saw dad taking lots of stuff to his room... so went to check it out~ he was having his air-con chemical washed and also my sisters room too... he was trying a new way of washing instead of our standard way... trying out on yourself before doing it on others? hahaz... well it'd been a year since we service our air-con... dad didn't plan on cleaning my air-con =.= well i felt mine doesn't feel windy anymore so borrow water-vacuum from his van~ took my own sweet time cleaning trying to get the jelly out and make it spotless! haha... well, i'm doing it ALL! for the first time... because i wanted to clean my room myself! and also have been watching dad doing the same thing since 8years old~ yep that's when i also followed him around working... i only do cleaning and carry the stuff since 8... took a photo of vacuumed clean and chemical clean... felt satisfied after testing it... no leak and no weird things happened! brought back the vacuum to dad's van again... sunburn was quite a pain when wearing a shirt >.< anyway doesn't restrict me much... went to had a nap after those cleaning and woke up cleaning my room again LOL! i must be insane cleaning whole day without reason... and today fix up my cpu plus cleaning the whole of it too! i'm doing it because i'm bored... CH didn't call me to meet him as he planned... it's ok, i don't mind because he had to company his gf too... cousin outing is coming so soon~ saturday it would be of... if any of my cousin is reading, please don't ask me (why never bring GF?/Got GF already?/why haven't find a GF?) i'm sick of it already... it's not i don't want, i have no idea about myself... i don't know why i was not given a chance either... it feel sucks of myself everytime you guys asked me... anyway i did lots of cleaning today ;P cupboard of one was always empty >.< well, it was for GF to put her stuff... today i'll be stopping at the photo i taken! LOL~ i'll continue cleaning tomorrow and pack my stuff too... haiz, so lonely for the holiday... nobody is free to lim kopi... today was satisfied by my own cleaning~ haha... yep, i'm satisfied easily as usual LOL! good night dear readers ^^


The difference of After and before >.<



Chemical cleaned... (by father)

Vacum-ed cleaned... (BY ME!!!)



At the Yishun damp catching some wind with friends~
(someone took it with my phone and happen to be found by me today =.=)




After last exam~ on our way to K-box! (sorry didn't take photo in K-box...)

Forgive and forget~

hi readers... saw my title? could you do that? well i believe not many could do it when it happens on them... anyway i wont want to care~ doesn't want to crack my brain over small matters... being told of self weakness and we should accept it and learn over weakness learning to be a better person but we could never be perfect... no matter how good you are, there's people who dislike something from you... skipped 2 days of work... hope i wont have to skip another day due to personal reason anymore... well someone guessed my first wish... it was not to be alone anymore... what are buddies/mei's/friends? they have to leave you soon after they had their partners... i had enough of being lonesome... that came in of finding a GF that could company her with or by her company me... i don't mind having to go reaching for her everyday as long as she doesn't mind... and of course i wont mind if she were to find me anytime but not forcing me to spent my studies/work time just to company her... it the reason for finding a understanding one... who also could trust me? in fact i'm too straight forward to make up a story to lie... wasn't much of my way to crack another brain cells for that either... you may call me lazy but i'm just avoiding thinking too much... but i could still have restrict on others secrets... well i couldn't think of what secret i have myself either... LOL~ does it matter? i hope i could meet my Princess soon... as i'm getting tired of waiting... falling asleep soon :P Yea, i'm feeling out of energy to push myself forward anymore... just making my dreams feel true to me, at least it's something that making me felt i'm needed... alright, i'll be stopping here for the day as i'm tired... good night...