Don't stop? Don't regret...

Hi~ i'm back home so late >.< went cycling whole day... still couldn't decide ISC or school... well i would most probably stay for school as i haven't be ready for it... i haven't get my "needs" to go ISC... lol i don't feel that the pay was really attracting me as i still doesn't find my "force" to it... let's drop it and say what i need to say... don't think or see me so relaxing heck care of anything... i'm only watching over my circle... what circle? my group/friends... sorry to say i was always a key role of defense... i don't wish someone to break my group as i wont wish to hate someone... i've send my first warning if you can't feel it, i'm sorry to say... i have my limits too... i shall inform you about this... first it would be my friend to reject you by their own feels of you... if it doesn't work you shall smell my words with perfume... if you still couldn't get it it's ok... i wouldn't be nasty but i sure would let you feel awful... IF! you still can't stop... better don't let me smell you as you wouldn't like it... this words is already on the second line... don't push it anymore, thanks... i won't like to hate someone neither like to break the connection of any... it only hurt alot people, think twice again as i could only say...

i sworn to protect my love ones till they're settle down, i'm not the bodyguard but i would be their guardian, i love them as my closest ones... my wings are spread only for them... being their bodyguard i would protect them with my effort and those whom reached out for me... a guardian love the one they protect... a bodyguard, should not love your client...

where was i? oh yea... my songs was always meant to my feel... "Go on girl"... i'm fine... trust me i'll sure be fine... as i trust you that you've made your choice... to me now i just couldn't give you more advise... i couldn't just do it... "sorry, Blame it on me"... whatever i do/done all could just blame it on me... i started it and i'll take the blame... i understand there some problem and i'm not too bind to know... even though you might not show... i'm the reason for your pain... just put the blame on me i won't cry back... i'm sorry...

*Ps: if you think my buddy was to be afraid of, then i could suggest you to reconsider... being the longest bad guy doesn't make you the baddest of all... it doesn't matter at all...


Picture from the chalet taken by me :P (i felt that it's at the right post!)

changing of blog style...

hmm i would stop blogging daily events here and would write here as i felt what to put? hahaz! currently now feel like drawing and just a drawing book of my feel? where should i draw my picture in? couldn't find a best thing to draw... now i would rather draw picture than simple words... a picture can say a thousand words but a word could only be a word... a picture meant hundreds meaning but a word could only be few... maybe it's because something hit me hard? i think i made a mistake which i shouldn't even make... now i'm just waiting for the effects of my mistake... since it's made then i should be prepare for the worst now... and my prediction was right although i don't wish it would be... anyway it'd happen so there's nothing i could do and wish happiness... i've seen things much open and much lightly since young... humans believe what they see but they wouldn't feel what is the truth/meaning behind it... they believe what's close to them leaving out others... when soft don't works than only when they experience it then they would feel the pain... i couldn't do much to help when that person wouldn't believe and trust me... leaving me tearing in a corner writing this blog... i would remember that promise...

well my plan now is to bring those to work towards their results and bring them forward... i couldn't stay silent any longer, letting them to their fall... my weakness is leaving thing that there were... it's time again to bring part of me out for the reaching hands...

not only trust but is being honest and understanding...

*SMS me if you want morning call to school...

Should i start?

My Thoughts?
my love to a girl wasn't giving her the best but i love her by giving her what i think the best for her... i wont give her words of mine but opinion of what's the difference from the path she choose... no matter what she choose she would have my support and i would accept what she became of...

Add-on?
Anata Ga Inai To Iyaiyatte Ieru Wagamama

My Feelings? (confuse and unsure...)
i couldn't get it... just could even figure it out no matter how hard i think... it's Me or Him? haiz... whatever~ i just felt unstable inside... maybe i'm sick or thinking too much...

3 August 2009
8am woke up by my phone dropping on the floor >.< seriously i have to get a new phone... couldn't sleep anymore so play FB~ end up chatting with oversea friend LOL! (wish you guys get great results... do find me when you guys are coming back!) ate my bee hoon brought by mom last night as breakfast LOL... went back to play FB after lunch and decide to watch old movie by chow xin xin XD it end at 12.45pm then start preparing for school although i know i'm going to be late just go lor personal reason also... took the bus that was SO empty... i just love afternoon class LOL... reach Tam. interchange jia yi msg me say no one from their group is there =.= okay didn't msg her i was going too LOL... reach class they were right there already... today lesson was abit confusing for me? because my previous school didn't go in that much about antenna... so had my focus on the lesson today! was getting bored by ronney style of teaching... break time slack in class not going for lunch... after class went to cafe 2 for lunch... wanted to have Tori Karage but don't have le T.T anyway had the usual set... after meals went up for care lesson... xin went also although she said in plurk she's isn't going... anyway care lesson Soh talk about study linked by his plant theory... wasn't interested at that because it doesn't really matter to me anymore... i was issue to join ISC wondering should i quit school and go for it? my answer came out very soon... i'm not going because i have much more things i wanted to do... then looking at else where wondering lots and lots... after care went to orchard with mei and vin... meet linda giving her my completed monthly stock check list... after that went home alone... while walking way home mikey mei tapped me when my mom called me... chat with her awhile lor... forgot to get her new phone number >.< she also didn't have mine =.= NVM we'll meet up anytime if there's chance ba... reach home fall to sleep while waiting for mom to cook the dinner... woke up had dinner and surf net... doesn't really get into games lately... played l4d with mei and vin after watching TV... stopping here for the day... night readers... have sweet dreams... i hardly have dreams >.< i wish i would have even it's a nightmare...

My Thoughts?
i will write for sure tomorrow >.< sorry...

My Feeling? (Still in the HAPPY MODE!)
i wonder why? felt existence of being thought by someone... WHO WHO WHO?

2 August 2009
woke up by deston phone alarm... and tried going back to sleep... but they making noise because we're booking out as early as possible... deston said i snored? maybe due to too tired ba... my family member didn't ever told me i snored when i sleep... whatever~ was having late sleep and early calls... we brushed up as usual and prepare to go off... packing my speaker was a little troublesome... manage to get all in the field pack faster than the day we came... everything was LIGHT! checked out and took deston dad cab to his house putting things at his house... then went for breakfast at the plaza... his dad join in soon after we started out meals... li jia have to go off because she's late for something... des and kiat company her to the bus stop while i and des dad carry on with our meals... went back to deston house watching him play audi first with his old keyboard then his new de... kiat and i was waiting for him to smash the old one... but the result of the old keyboard wasn't that bad! des score 1million and decide to give him live longer LOL! soon des and kiat fell asleep, so i took over his computer surfing net and blog... around 4.30 kiat woke up and left while des is still asleep... i left deston house at around 5 and forget my stock list and walk all the way back to his house... reach home didn't sleep at all! was surfing the net for some lame stuff! watch old movies and E.sis called me to go out with her to north point to collect her stuff... then she would treat me a seaweed fries! i accept of course~ took bus there and brought the fries... walk home with sis having my tasty fries! brought 2 drinks home and mom brought me bee hoon... and soon called deston... he call me to have roti prata with him at the usual place =.= so i left the bee hoon for breakfast? shower myself and cycle to meet him... i reach there first! waiting for him a ku ku person call my phone talk an neh... LOL don't know is a prank call or what la but i just hang it up... soon des came and order the food while i didn't eat... firstly it came 2 prata then a plate of mee goreng! never thought he was that hungry... after both food is down into him we have chats... then we share a bowl of kumbeng soup? LOL not bad lor... at least it's much better that the others in cheong pang... we change table soon after that... des tried to light his cigarette but his lighter is totally out of gas LOL! but he manage to get a light... around 2.30am his audi couple call him and i disturb them LOL... because we saw a car/truck... the game where you drive a truck and catch animal de car XD des and i Xiao dao beng... LOL! then we went back home liaoz... okay ending here le... nightiez readers...

Back from chalet!

My Thoughts?
- No entry XD (maybe tonight?!)

My Feelings? (Happy and still happy :D)
all because of one :D

1 August 2009
was awake by the friends of deston in the 4am... not only once but 4 times by their knocking of the door... first was about going to the toilet... second was taking some stuff... thridly about going off... lastly return of card =.= joel didn't sleep, he was playing his psp all night long! woke up again at 9am instructed by li jia... but that's for ervin to go meet wee kiat to buy the keyboard for des... woke up again at 10am planning to stock up stuff that's over used by last night... and to wake deston up i blast the music >.< it'd work... LOL! every one brushed up and went to NTUC shop shop... then went back to the room rest again waiting for wee kiat and ervin to come back... i fallen asleep and wee kiat help me break the chicken wing and woke me up after he was done... and i start marinate them... soon after that we went to the pool LOL... shall cut the part due to long long story XD after pool des god mother came... he called ervin to fetch her while we go NTUC once more for charcoal... after buying the stuff went back but deston and wee kiat went to smoke... call li jia to book the pit while i wait... after booking i wait at the pit and she call the rest to bring down the stuff... i start the fire again... but this time deston uncle did it after i hand over... his uncle cook after that while i slack around XD... start eating without waiting for the fire... soon our group came then margaret group... chat with both group a little and start wonder off around looking for ervin... trying to get him for my phone... then catch up on him going out with deston... they went out for a smoke? LOL... soon after we went back and xin came follow on by mei... was ask to take 2 balloon from other group of people having party there... well did that anyway... hmm chat for some more and went to margaret group... keeping company of this two group trying to get them together... but it doesn't seems working... our group went to the room... skipping all the long grand mother story and deston game friend came... mix around a little with them... and had liquor again! COOL eh~ miss my bartender days... then our group play the trolley pushing it back to the NTUC =.= and they went off from there... soon after deston dad came... and soon soon after his family member went off... follow on by his game friend... and i alone at the pit cooking and packing up? LOLz... xin and mei have not went back yet :D so i cook the food and brought it up... deston came back soon after i was about to finish packing up the area... join them in for a little talk and went up again... bathed soon after ervin... mei and xin was about to go home and mei want ervin to send her home LOL... so let him be~ send 3 of them off and saw deston with his other friend in game... after the 3 bid farewell continue sending them to the taxi and went back looking for deston... di siao dino there and also the pig LOL... Dino is li jia and pig was wee kiat... deston will be the Tian Ji (frog...) gave him this name because of the shirt they gave him XD 4 of us went back packing the last bit of stuff giving all left over to the group of people that i took the balloon from, and went back to the room... we took some photos after they bath LOL! because throughout the chalet we didn't had any photos... did some stupid post... i would grab some from deston soon... went to sleep soon after we're tired... stopping here and i shall post today tonight ^-^

31 July 2009
woke up at 8.30am and start disturbing deston from his sleep LOL... because we have to buy the seafood and stuff for top up... keep setting his and mine phone alarm and let it rang and rang for each alternate phones XD... he couldn't take it until 10am... wait for him to brush up and went off to the market... we check at a store and deston ask the uncle for a basket and he show des attitude LOL! after i choose the sotong des ask the uncle to pick 2kg of prawn but this time the uncle attitude change sia LOL~ anyway went for breakfast/lunch? after meals we went back to prepare the seafood... shouldn't said we but I! i finish the sotong and 1kg of prawn and des was playing audi in his room... then he pack his clothes soon after a game or two? at least his mom helped me a little... after the preparing, we di li dea li waiting for ervin and wee kiat to come... des father was about to reach then that 2 came... so we move everything down... after loading the stuff Hing and his gf coming... waiting for sometime and having to endure the garbage smell... the truck was near to the garbage =.= after hing and his gf came we went off to collect the ice at tampines and also brought our lunch/dinner? went to the chalet right after that... Mark was there way before us waiting for us there... had out meals in the room at 4.22pm... then des and few of them went off to buy charcoal while some of us rest in the bed... after they're back we start shifting stuff for the BBQ while i starting the fire... they stay at the room resting while i still waiting for the charcoal to get hotter with mark company me and helped me... having the charcoal at the right heat called them down but they didn't want to come down to cook... des mom, grandma and aunt with baby came soon after and we start BBQing the food and stuff... soon after li jia took over the Chef for me and i slip off eating and play with boy boy XD... time pass very quickly and deston secondary school friend came... mark call me to go out with him to fetch johnny to surprise deston because mark told deston that linda and johnny having set-up at tang... and i add-ed on that they did call me to help them and i rejected them >.< johnny didn't come with linda because she said that she's tired and might not be coming... we brought some stuff deston requested... and met up johnny by his funny location he gave us... found him just near the entrance =.= well went in and trying to avoid letting deston view... but we fail because he was at the middle of the path we're trying to cross... AWW~ no surprise liao... after which we grab a table and have our chit chat there while i serve the food sometimes... Li jia our dino maid served us while we chat... and johnny have his butt stuck on that seat from the time he came right to the time he leave >.< he brought out a bottle of wine! Deston was honored to open it... it's very GOOD and i mean it top quality... after we finish the bottle des open the wine he brought from home and we tasted it... wasn't that great but i prefer his second bottle wine... it taste less alcohol and could actually taste the wine much better... while enjoying with the rest des have to serve his other guest while we had our own fun chats and knowledge sharing... soon the right drink came! liquor! we had the small bottle out of the 2 vodka... no mixer just purely the shots cup! but i prefer chivas for no mix... more smoothing and not that hot... i drank 1/3 of the bottle and des face was red XD and his talking some doooooo~ i mean his a little drank... soon after his secondary school mate came down... linda and johnny sent deston up while his friends try to get entertainment themselves... they decide to go to a near-by park to play games with liquor and cards... didn't know where they go but i join up with des in the room... johnny,mark and linda went off soon after my arrival... des was in the bed already... and he told me to help him with some stuff... after the job is done i went to bed... damn tired too...

* PS have been cutting off lots of event too much to say and too much to write...