Fixing the missing feels... (edited)

My thoughts about my "possibility"
possibility was made by each and every little thing you do... one small little thing that affect someone might make another possibility... even so leaders in the group are always a key role to make the turns of tide... making each and possibility they way they wished for... every little things counts when one effort was put into, every things adds up make another kind of possibility~ even things that isn't expected came to your way, don't let it pull down you... Make that counts and turn the tide...

My Feels?
hmm today had a long blog~ because like missed a day and want to fix the hole... hmm lately doesn't feel right... but i guess i should be feeling better after a long night talk with deston... su ku a little ba but isn't that much... just way too much to kept from people... well going to make it private on 21 july so please tag ur e-mail if you want to carry on reading~ it's still open for people who want to read it... and those who don't wish to see don't go tag your e-mail la... i also never ask you to read it if you think it's not right~ wa kaoz... this is a free to write blog lea... never even damage you and not also saying about you... NOT EVEN 1 POST WAS ABOUT YOU LA! you feel i was like you then be different from me lah~ it's not that i want to be like you! plus you aren't a faithful person to your gf... i'm totally unlike you! so shoo off if you think i was you...

Add-on?
can see some tigers are getting together more and more... but still yet not much of stroking on each other back... i'll hope they would... we have a (few?) leaders in our group... it means lots of key role too... but they all have a different role too... let's see, deston holds the key role of bringing laughter and joy plus he could bring the moody group of ours up! and kah yi plays the role for leading us to a better side and trying to bring us together, could be a laughter when she have quarrel with des... a natural leaders from the inside... hui xin is a role that is for them to hold when they're lost and make the path for them to follow or could i say the decision maker? she never know what she decide but she makes everyone decide to follow... and well, they have each more talent unfolded... let's talk about the rest? Ervin the bridge that lead us to von mei... his also the joy bringer like acting cute or make qian da face... also means he have lots of emotions to his face... von mei... the one who doesn't belong to our group in class... but still she holds the control over ervin LOL~ Xiang the BAKEMONO! the tallest in class and also having a giant hand! LOL well that's what i felt about him too... doesn't show much about him because his also quite a follower... Jimson... the bubble boy~ but doesn't see him playing much bubble now... i still feel his still way too childish... maybe i still haven't gone much into him... but his still bring joy to us... jian hua the singer~ i love his song of tao zhe! wa haha... go K-box sure must have him... well also a follower in group still... ben neo ah gong? doing stuff looks like ah gong... a follower too... ben low the guai kia~ also another follower... he holds a little key to make us study~ gen jing... the COLDEST~ can never remember my name or just faking it? i wonder~ as also another follower in group... that end the group member...

16 July 2009
company me till jalan kayu ask him chat abit more because i really need someone to su ku... too much stuff to say but still say what i could only say... then a sudden question i was wondering about myself~ it was about him and SOMEONE ELSE! haha... it bugged him the whole night too! LOL~ we chat there for 2 hours and change to another shop because the one didn't have KOPI-O KUO? after changing we carry-on chatting a little more... around 4am plus went to seng kang but bottle drinks and went to seletar damp and sat there waiting for sun rise? LOL mom cook my dinner but never go back to eat it >.< well at least now only deston is the only person in singapore now who have the longest night outside with me 1 to 1? LOL~ sounds so GAY! well the others who did already went oversea and lost contact... that's life anyway... memories is what it's left and never fades... hmm we waited for the sun rise? but didn't get to see the sun because he have to cycle all the way back to seng kang~ i company him a short distance and rushed back home... was so tired and don't even dare to lie down the bed or rest my head... bathed and rushed to school... and was another late for the day again~ LOL! seriously my attendance was always late >.< reach school didn't sleep yet but fall to sleep when soh talk about boring subject again... after lesson went to eat at cafe 2... after they went to buy their food jimson came then i went to buy my food... after lunch LLA~ watch a video... well it some kind link to my words "2 kind of world, million kind of possibility" well enjoy-ed the SHIT stuff from the movie too... it's kind of vulgar and mental problems? so not for children under 12 or maybe 16... LOL~ after video went to sleep with ipod~ hahaz~ after lesson is RCT~ rct group test! first one to do then can go off after finishing~ well didn't go back after finishing... went around to help friend... kah yi TOOPID~ like never use the equ. before... like the basic also don't know... after they finish we go to cafe 1 for their dinner? i didn't eat because i haven't eat at home for so long... was too busy working or with friends that never seen so long already... well have LAME chats? after that went home lor... nothing happen on the way home... but went to sleep after reaching home... okay stopping here... now is my feeling and thoughts~

15 July 2009
hmm quite forgotten what i have done in the morning... that's why late for school... even for afternoon lesson too >.< well NWT wasn't any sweat for me anyway... just don't like doing static routing... too troublesome and complicated for most of them studying wireless tech... class ended soon after... and it's S&W next~ didn't go even though i wanted to play badminton... not much challenger to play with nowadays... but went to have lunch with deston... then ben came down with jian hua with a pissed off mood by S&W teacher LOL~ she doesn't want to mark their attendance although no matter how reasonable excuse they gave... after meals we headed home~ board the bus 31 with deston and hua hua~ haha... then hing came up not long after us... he and deston talk cock in the bus LOL~ well reach tam interchange and sat bus 969... a girl stand so close to me at the que for the bus... didn't notice untill i turn around... okay~ she was trying to use me to avoid 5 bastard trying to get her number... she's way too young for me anyway... about sec 3 or 4... LOL~ well board the bus and she sat beside me also... and the 5 bakeymono just behind us... i was very tired so i slept towards the window... scare later fall asleep kao dao ta ~.~ anyway drop off with her then walk home from yishun mrt >.< because the 5 bastard followed her... then broke off with her soon after she was near her house... Make it clear! i never take her number and ask her name >.< she's pretty but no thanks... just doing my daily favors for girls! haha... anyway don't think will even meet her again... after that walk home and change clothes went cycling to deston house... going to check the price for the food his going to buy... reach his house his aunt was there too? went to his room without him noticing me at his house already... he was playing his X-box, need for speed (most wanted)... when he crash to a car i shout press slow motion la! he kanna shocked LOL~ well use his computer for few mins becuase it was on anyway... then play his X-box because he don't know go do what already... after that play the career mode for him because he don't know how to evade the police for 9mins? LOL easy for me~ cleared it but i was busted because don't know what to do after evading the police chase after 9 mins going 10 >.< haha... anyway after that game we went to NTUC doing the price check... walking around there like idiots going back and forth~ hahaz... an hour later we completed the price check then i brought takoyaki~ and then went to a near-by LRT to top up his ezlink card... he went up and down the lift and tell me he never bring his card >.< i was about to have my tako down my mouth ~.~ anyway we cycle back to his house passing by compass point and he told me he want to draw money and top up his ez-link card after crossing the road before reaching the way to his house he brake and ask to U-turn... i shout at him~ SIAO AR! never bring ez-link card go for what? we both laugh LOL~ he went back home and i waited below without my hp... it was in his bag~ i waited about 30 mins then he came down with his clothes changed and telling me a lame thing... deston: "I smsed your phone saying i stomach pain and tell you to wait... after i went to the toilet i saw your hp in my bag and read the sms on your phone... i saw my own msg..." i was totally DIAO at him =.= anyway had the tako while waiting for him~ ENJOYED IT~ lolz... well i never mind to wait for someone for hours but not to the extend that after waiting so long then tell me couldn't come la... so relax des~ i don't mind~ went to compass point and wait for him outside listening to my music... after that went to his house and start counting the price for the BBQ stuff... well was abit over the budget for him because he was paying for all the food himself... lucky that he had $150 for NTUC... so cut down quite alot for him... he still have to fork out $230 at most... (i remember something... never help him include the tong price >.< tell him tomorrow ba... LOL~) after all the counting it was 11.28pm... ask him company me to jalan kayu LOL~ okay 16 july liao...