post for the past 4 day~

My thoughts?
say out no need pay money? yea no need pay money... but saying something will have other price to pay... like trust, pride, honor and future is being paid for what you've said... that's why i told everyone not to look into money as the value! money can be visual and physical seen but trust, pride , honor and future can't... once you say something you still have to pay a price no matter which you had pay you wont know till it's over... don't make a promise if you can't do it! don't break a promise if you made it! don't swear, swearing is like having a 3rd party to maintain the trust like 1 to 1 to 1... what kind of 3rd party? god or friend? which ever it is i don't trust... god wont punish ever you didn't keep what you've said... friend wont punish you either... so what's the point of swearing? promise is a 1 to 1, it take only 2 person to make the deal... more safer and trustful... as i mention on the previous post something like a middle-man... whatever it is... think, consider and plan out before promising someone... that's all for now... it's 2:22am already... nights...

6 July 2009
woke up early today... listen to music and went singing myself without noticing i was singing... well was being ignored and felt so down... decide not to go for lunch... don't wish to show my emo face there... call up von mei to go school together later on... then went off to my pillow... water all out as much as i could... then bathed and ate biscuit... walk to mrt again doing the same stuff... walked too slow was late to meet mei... LOL~ ps la... didn't mean to be late... she wait for me at bishan... meet up with her saw ervin~ he went to mei house today... lent mei my psp to play LOL~ well i sing my song she play her game ervin stare the screen! haha~ reach school a little late... went up saw deston in class already! rare! well went in class i still wanted to sing... i couldn't get over with it... so sang thought out the whole lesson... as usual they have their fun and i watch... don't really have the mood to join them today... break time i went to cafe 2 with des and ervin... have a chicken rice... because feeling hungry... ate the rice like eating a plain bread... no taste again... haiz... rct end early so we went cafe 1... some of them have their dinner? i brought ice-cream with ben... had the ice-cream like having ice in mouth too... have my world gone plain? haiz... whatever... care lesson was next... talk about h1n1 lor~ then soh gave a little
nwt lesson on 7 layer... although he talk a lot useless stuff but at least people understand what he was teaching about... after lesson they had conversation with the group leader and class rep. haiz... when they come out our group have conversation again... no mood to join them still... they talk their stuff i listen... keep walking round and round around them... keeping myself company... after that went home lehs... reach home never bath... went to lie down abit searching into my own feeling... i couldn't take the ignoring anymore... i'm gonna be crazy for that... i feel so unwanted... deston called me telling me about his audi gf... he broke up with her because of immature thoughts of human... soon after have a class conversation and kah yi told us she broke up with her bf... haiz... she wanted a protection from him... well i guess i could lent a hand? send her home ba since i have no gf to protect for... but it's for temporary~ haha! got the urge to ask someone what she really want me to... i couldn't take it anymore... anyway she went off... so ask her tomorrow? or should i? whatever... meeting mei again tomorrow for school again? we'll see... good night to anyone who read my blog...

5 July 2009
woke up around 7 read plurk... feeling down again just like yesterday... walk to mrt singing off again... don't really feel good although i sang so many song... and lucky today got empty seat on train~ well gave it to an old auntie at amk station... work was okay... a little more customer that saturday... at least customer asked few question~ then Li an told me to keep promotion stuff at 7pm >.< alone with 4 set-up only got 150mins to finish it... haiz... what ever~ lunch time is here very soon... no mood to eat at all... but went to buy macdonald... because canteen never open! ate with galina... today mom and aunt came to visit me at work... well went around showing them my products and brought them to meet some of the da jie working there beside me... lol they all say my mom and aunt looks young... they're in their 40's and 50's! they guess both of them in their 30's going 40's! LOL omg~ i'm 21 now and my mom only 40? HAHA! they also laugh~ bunch of crazy da jie's~ well went arounf the 4th level with my mom shopping with them... well dinner time came... don't have the mood to eat again... went to 5th floor to look whatever i could get for dinner... brought long john and stuff down my food... don't have taste to me when i'm not in mood... well back to work i started packing the stuff at 6pm ignoring the time they told me to... because the store for the product is messy and it's quite full la~ don't know how to pack it liao siar... everything in there was a mess... so i just pack whatever i could... galina came to help me too... around 9pm we both gave up... too many wine cups have wrong coding... and i still have another product to move... i rested 5 mins and off to clear the bodrum... well just put all stuff in the basket and let the promoter for tomorrow to handle it... well chatted with the staff after clearing all and it was already 9:40! way passed my knock off time! hope got count for the OT... well went back yishun and walk home again... sang all i could with my slow walk~ wasn't feeling well after reaching home... feeling giddy... maybe today really had been busy with numbers makes me feel giddy? whatever... brought a bottle of juice with 5%alcohol and sat at the void deck enjoying them... no alcohol could get me drunk... so it's useless to feel down and went for drink... haiz... how i wish i could get drunk... and forget whatever had happen... reach home and bathed... tomorrow school start le~ plurk again and made myself so pissed by some people... as if i like people to shoot me siar... this part will be on the previous post... you could read from there... went to sleep soon after chatting with my friend on msn...

4 July 2009
was up early to work again... woke up so early and having problem looking at the time... LOL~ well was having a boring day... customer flow was okay but not much came to look into my products... well was counting stock with linda soon after she came... i like doing stock taking and arrange~ haha... because it was really a mess in the store... i kept calling linda back after we done with the stock taking! because i went treasure hunting in the store and keep finding stuff! LOL~ well after she left JM called me asking if i wanted to go out... DUH! i'm working near ur house! lol he was actually shopping with cat and hl... actually he planned to come out with our old friends but he only send a few and other was cancel... so he didn't notice until today he called kai ask why never come LOL~ she told him she never receive any sms~ LOL! well they came to look for me at shaw centre~ keep telling him Level 4 house hold 3 times siar~ pek chek... then i went to punch card go shop with them awhile skipping my dinner! don't feel like eating... no mood to eat also... around 45min pass i went back to work till 8pm then went to find them~ cat went to her friend birthday so left with jm and hl... they were having dinner at hong kong bla bla bla... forgotten the name liao... well they left some food and ask me have the rest >.< i really have no mood to eat lehs... anyway give them some face since they left some for me... haiz... at least something in my stomach... a reward for myself after a day of hardwork? whatever~ after that pei jm walk to orchard mrt and he bus-ed home... me and hl take mrt~ had small chat with her about the girl i like? because they already know~ jm that big mouth! LOL~ anyway i wont keep much secrets from them... because they're the few who know me more than any friend... well if i had gf i would have told them first too... it's our deal within our group~ hahaz... reaching katib mrt i send hl home and carried-on chatting... well after sending her home i walked back and kept singing song with my mp3~ an hour walk home and sang which ever song i like... hahaz~ because my feeling is very bad due to something... no bike so sing also would be better... well i sang until i... what ever... reach home around 11 plus... bathed and online~ and off to sleep again... due to working full shift again...