no post but all my feels...

Si bei du lan... don't know why some people just like to shoot me just because i er xin to someone? wtf? just because i love someone then say abit mushy stuff then must shoot me... i really don't get what they're thinking... yet they called me a wolf? they don't even know who i am and what i was and they judged... isn't it being unfair? well i already know this world is never been fair... but i feel being discriminated as a pervert... i was trying my best to cheer someone up and yet tio shoot by them again... because they think nan ren wei being said by me is er xin again... WTF? can't i even cheer someone just because i really tried my best... maybe i should try woo other girls to gain experience first? NO WAY~ i don't want to just woo after someother girls and hurting them just like that... they're also human like guys... why can't i just love someone with my way? must i love someone like in the movies, drama or anime? all i wanted was to love someone freely and simple... as i don't like complicated life too... i just want my life to be simple and enjoyable... why they like to shoot people just because they're a little different from what they see in life? can't they just talk behind people back like others? at least they wont interfere what that person life... can't i be extra more concern and caring to the one i love? they think i think only for myself and keep shooting me in that way to keep making me feel that i'm thinking for myself and making me guilty for it... it's totally unreasonable... if that someone really don't like my concern and care she could tell me personally... i wont care anything if it just have myself dead to make her smile back... well~ okay i'm stuborn and strives what i already have decided... i wont view people comments untill i had fail uncountable times... i wont give up what i wanted, because i've made the choice after considering hard enough and i would treasure it more than whatever it is... and i dislike people being middle-man... because they could betray you or stab you anytime... i wont want my love to be bridge by a middle man... i would rather use my trust to bridge up my relationships... it's being stupid to have middle man in life... because enemy would just need to break down the middle man with confusing story just to stab u hard... but trust wont be... because it's a straight connection between you and her... if u trust her and she does too it will never be break down... trust meaning no secret at all towards partners and trust them in whatever they do... i guess i have to stop my theory... but all i wanted was to be able to cheer her up when she's feeling down... lent her a shoulder when she needs them... a pair of listening ears to share her troubles with... a thinking brain to solve her problems... a pair of arms to hug her for warmth she needs and when she needs to be protected... a pair of legs to walk with her whenever she wants to... what's wrong with the love i'm wishing to give her? what's WRONG?! well for me... love is something humans don't understand... they're too many different type of love... but for me, love is something i've accept her as whatever she is and whatever she become... it's not the beauty, it's not the personality, it's not the characteristic and it's not whatever... it's whoever she is, i loved for... i think i should stop this topic... haiz, they're her angel then why can't i be her guardian angel? just because my way was somewhat different? i'm tired of them... tomorrow school is starting... hope everything will be fine... good night readers, for reading my complains? LOL... whatever...