Thoughts about decision making?
mostly people doesn't have good decision making due to lack of confidence or they doesn't have the goals they wanted... goals are like destination? if you've set your destination you would know where to get to at the end of your journey... walking a path of life with your destination confirm you wont lost your way keeping your destination in mind and you would reach it no matter how lost you had been... But without your destination you couldn't find your way to where you wanted because you didn't know where you want (to go/be at)... imagine you're in a cab telling the uncle your destination you could get there... but if you couldn't tell your destination how could the uncle even go to where you want to go? even when going to your destination of course there would be wave of difficulties, even so many gave up after trying to overcome them/lost when they couldn't get to their destination... so having a firm decision is important... but with a undying attitude towards you destination, people will call you as stuborn... so it's up to you to be stuborn or having firm decision...
(My destination? it's on my secret list ^^)
My Feelings?
To me i didn't really have much things i wanted in life... all i want was a partner who can be with me throughout the lifes... i agree i'm stuborn but it's totally pure and firm decision because the person i wanted to be with was to me a very "Rare" kind? somebody who could loves you so deep that could have forgot her own existence... someone who could hold onto a relationship, someone who could have 100% trust that she only had you in her... well i couldn't share all out... just keep it to myself for the rest ^^ ending it right here!
10 July 2009
hmm today woke up at 8.30 stare at the celling couldn't sleep anymore... so went to play some games in computer... then off preparing to work soon after playing... while going to work it rains... will didn't care much and off to work with my NEW headset~ ENJOYED it! went to look for deston before work... and also passed him joel name tag before i forgot about it again... today work was a little boring? feeling so sian because never go out with them ba? today clean my counter and went walking around the 4th level chatting with aunties! met des for dinner at cine and brought ervin his peasant... damn piss by a security guard today... his damn lazy just to let me collect my bag and put it back later on after the break... i was so damn pissed i shouted at him... telling him all the security rules that i know... he was stunned and he wanted to bring my bag to me i shout back "IT's OK! i don't need it anymore!" i hate this kind of lazy person who just sat at the table for long hours and yet so lazy to just turn his chair to take a bag! well when coming back to work after dinner approach by 2 girl acting as interview trying to con me for my contact... i denied because i was late for work already =.= and saw their group was looking to me when they came to me from their direction... well those girl was like types that deston like? LOL~ back to work lucky the security changed... or else i have to shout again... the few hours of work was so boring that i keep walking left and right... after work i went to taka to go home together? LOL~ have small chats on the way back... reach yishun and walked home using different way today~ because listen to music enjoying it so took a longer path~ LOL okay... i'll stop here? good night~
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Random thoughts...
Thoughts of randomness?
every little things we do in life have it's affecting to the others! example... if you scold someone due to little things, he/she will receive negative thoughts and would effect his mood! so he/she would have a bad day and would scold other person who could have done small mistakes and things might keep going worst when the chain gets longer and more splits... so think positive and be positive as always!
Thoughts of add-on?
confidence is what every of each need! without confidence things won't turn out as what you've expect! by gaining confidence you could have build up, so don't let small little comments from someone who had their different view to destroy your confidence... if it comes to leadership, confidence in the leader must be stronger than a plated metal... being a leader which would bring some unwanted comments going back and fore your back, so don't be distracted by those little stuff that don't relate to what you're going through with firm decisions! but do not let out small little holes in the boat you're riding in... this small little holes might have a prolong effect in your long run performance and you really wont wish that would happen when your shows is running HOT! remember when leading people tends to look into your mistake/loopholes... pick them up and mend it right away before things get nasty...
My Feels?
today sang with all my heart and soul into all my fav. songs... but i sang like not at the best standard? whatever~ only deston, ervin and jian hua suffered~ LOL! feeling very down lately so sorry to made u guys listen to my painful feeling deep down >.< Gomeh Nasai! anyway was feeling much better... well i still need the chance... well you guys are the best to hear me out what i feel deep down... HAHAZ
09 July 2009
well today was late for school due to the traffic jam from yishun all the way up to pungol TPE expressway... the bus was only moving 28 to 40km/h! OMG was so damn late because a bus flipped over... >.< lousy driver~ anyway got to school and was about to be 10 soon... so didn't have much stuff to learn anyway... after lesson me, des and ervin went to collect our pay~ LOL and we called up hua hua to sing K with us because we don't want to go for LLA and RCT since we already know how to use the Feq. Gen.~ let others have the chance to learn ^^ anyway call des to try get xin here... but failed T_T and so is von mei~ PS me once again... sian... well i sign up for the K membership paying $10~ well we need that for student price so no chioce lor... today they say all bo form cannot sing and only i on form? LOL my singing is like damn bad >.< and almost all song is sang by me~ lol because very emo when singing those song~ sing untill feel so emo siar >.< okay had fun too... and hua hua looks more cheered up after K? well went to deston house after that because we're going to buy some stuff... i brought a necklace for my (toooooo) and a headset like jimson de... LOL because mine is spoiled~ after that we went walking in Basamarlam... today like eating quite much so i guess the next few days will be on diet? hmm i think i cut quite alot for my blog posting le... LOL~ okay went home after shopping... END~ haha... nights to all!
every little things we do in life have it's affecting to the others! example... if you scold someone due to little things, he/she will receive negative thoughts and would effect his mood! so he/she would have a bad day and would scold other person who could have done small mistakes and things might keep going worst when the chain gets longer and more splits... so think positive and be positive as always!
Thoughts of add-on?
confidence is what every of each need! without confidence things won't turn out as what you've expect! by gaining confidence you could have build up, so don't let small little comments from someone who had their different view to destroy your confidence... if it comes to leadership, confidence in the leader must be stronger than a plated metal... being a leader which would bring some unwanted comments going back and fore your back, so don't be distracted by those little stuff that don't relate to what you're going through with firm decisions! but do not let out small little holes in the boat you're riding in... this small little holes might have a prolong effect in your long run performance and you really wont wish that would happen when your shows is running HOT! remember when leading people tends to look into your mistake/loopholes... pick them up and mend it right away before things get nasty...
My Feels?
today sang with all my heart and soul into all my fav. songs... but i sang like not at the best standard? whatever~ only deston, ervin and jian hua suffered~ LOL! feeling very down lately so sorry to made u guys listen to my painful feeling deep down >.< Gomeh Nasai! anyway was feeling much better... well i still need the chance... well you guys are the best to hear me out what i feel deep down... HAHAZ
09 July 2009
well today was late for school due to the traffic jam from yishun all the way up to pungol TPE expressway... the bus was only moving 28 to 40km/h! OMG was so damn late because a bus flipped over... >.< lousy driver~ anyway got to school and was about to be 10 soon... so didn't have much stuff to learn anyway... after lesson me, des and ervin went to collect our pay~ LOL and we called up hua hua to sing K with us because we don't want to go for LLA and RCT since we already know how to use the Feq. Gen.~ let others have the chance to learn ^^ anyway call des to try get xin here... but failed T_T and so is von mei~ PS me once again... sian... well i sign up for the K membership paying $10~ well we need that for student price so no chioce lor... today they say all bo form cannot sing and only i on form? LOL my singing is like damn bad >.< and almost all song is sang by me~ lol because very emo when singing those song~ sing untill feel so emo siar >.< okay had fun too... and hua hua looks more cheered up after K? well went to deston house after that because we're going to buy some stuff... i brought a necklace for my (toooooo) and a headset like jimson de... LOL because mine is spoiled~ after that we went walking in Basamarlam... today like eating quite much so i guess the next few days will be on diet? hmm i think i cut quite alot for my blog posting le... LOL~ okay went home after shopping... END~ haha... nights to all!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Feeling unwell...
Views and comments~
very different person have unique thinking, feeling and personality... let's talk about job... having low pay? doing lots more work than others? if it's about money than it's about how the company plans the leveling of the workers... if it's about the workload, it's the person who in charge of the people working under them... comparing the salary was what most people does because they just want to feel weather they get their fairness... in fact they had forgotten that the workload others done they only seen parts of it... they only understand they themselves had done more than others... in other saying, they didn't really know what others have really been doing their job and they expect their pay to be lower... remember what you see isn't what the truth is... the truth only shows when you put all unfairness aside... because human tends to look on the unfairness and start wondering about the bad stuff or the worst of a person or the job itself... if you really have work that hard and you still doesn't get a better pay, try look into yourself real deep till the extend of what you really want from it putting the unfairness aside too... the point was for yourself to look into a mirror and see yourself as another person thinking what that he/she have seen at the workload you've done... that's all for today... (want to understand more? msn pm me...)
My feeling and thoughts?
hmm today seems to peace down a little... but i could really settle down... she just wont share her problems... i'm feeling very worried? sad and worthless... i never want my love one to feel so down and i couldn't help at all... if only i had the chance... i just would want to protect her and give her endless support or help her if she's unable to take the problems... i only want that chance... i couldn't bear to see her feeling troubled... she could laugh at the face of the friend but she looks so troubled and sad when no one was looking... i admit i never took off my eye from her much... but i just couldn't think of a way to approach her and have her share her troubles... i just don't get a chance at all... i hope i would have that chance... as soon as it could... i couldn't hold my feelings just to tell her, "girl, what's wrong? you doesn't seems right..." i really hate seeing my love one so sad... even she tried to hide, she couldn't hide from me... what i feel and think is just only me myself... could it ever reach her? haiz... i'll stop here...
08 July 2009:
today woke up and felt so sick... so went back to sleep... wake up around 10 plus use computer awhile and off to sleep again... still feeling sick... had alot miss call while sleeping~ around 3 plus call back those who called me... and deston call me telling me the pay is out~ SHIOK AR~ then saw jia yi online... she also never go school due to feeling unwell too~ scarily we tio H1n1 she say... touch wood la... LOL~ well return call to mr.soh telling him i'm feeling unwell... he suddenly say "jia lat... deston also saying the same thing" >.< 3 person got almost the same problem siar... LOL~ but i sure is not h1n1... no fever at all... meet deston at taka to collect pay... and ervin was there... after which we went to shaw centre macdonald... deston had his filet meal~ i see him eat like a hungry beggar... LOL! joel came soon after his meal... he funny siar... don't know how to change train to get to orchard... LOL~ anyway went to marina square soon after... went there and had a walk around finding punching bag? LOL~ wu liao lor... punching bag just to train punching... never train kicking=.= a bit unbalance siea... well we had dinner... KFC, sick of fastfood already... well just chunk down lor~ went home after that... on the way to MRT di siao deston... reach yishun and walked back home singing again~ LOL... have been singing lee hom song this few days... maybe his song can let me sing out my feels? whatever... okay i'll stop here... nights~
very different person have unique thinking, feeling and personality... let's talk about job... having low pay? doing lots more work than others? if it's about money than it's about how the company plans the leveling of the workers... if it's about the workload, it's the person who in charge of the people working under them... comparing the salary was what most people does because they just want to feel weather they get their fairness... in fact they had forgotten that the workload others done they only seen parts of it... they only understand they themselves had done more than others... in other saying, they didn't really know what others have really been doing their job and they expect their pay to be lower... remember what you see isn't what the truth is... the truth only shows when you put all unfairness aside... because human tends to look on the unfairness and start wondering about the bad stuff or the worst of a person or the job itself... if you really have work that hard and you still doesn't get a better pay, try look into yourself real deep till the extend of what you really want from it putting the unfairness aside too... the point was for yourself to look into a mirror and see yourself as another person thinking what that he/she have seen at the workload you've done... that's all for today... (want to understand more? msn pm me...)
My feeling and thoughts?
hmm today seems to peace down a little... but i could really settle down... she just wont share her problems... i'm feeling very worried? sad and worthless... i never want my love one to feel so down and i couldn't help at all... if only i had the chance... i just would want to protect her and give her endless support or help her if she's unable to take the problems... i only want that chance... i couldn't bear to see her feeling troubled... she could laugh at the face of the friend but she looks so troubled and sad when no one was looking... i admit i never took off my eye from her much... but i just couldn't think of a way to approach her and have her share her troubles... i just don't get a chance at all... i hope i would have that chance... as soon as it could... i couldn't hold my feelings just to tell her, "girl, what's wrong? you doesn't seems right..." i really hate seeing my love one so sad... even she tried to hide, she couldn't hide from me... what i feel and think is just only me myself... could it ever reach her? haiz... i'll stop here...
08 July 2009:
today woke up and felt so sick... so went back to sleep... wake up around 10 plus use computer awhile and off to sleep again... still feeling sick... had alot miss call while sleeping~ around 3 plus call back those who called me... and deston call me telling me the pay is out~ SHIOK AR~ then saw jia yi online... she also never go school due to feeling unwell too~ scarily we tio H1n1 she say... touch wood la... LOL~ well return call to mr.soh telling him i'm feeling unwell... he suddenly say "jia lat... deston also saying the same thing" >.< 3 person got almost the same problem siar... LOL~ but i sure is not h1n1... no fever at all... meet deston at taka to collect pay... and ervin was there... after which we went to shaw centre macdonald... deston had his filet meal~ i see him eat like a hungry beggar... LOL! joel came soon after his meal... he funny siar... don't know how to change train to get to orchard... LOL~ anyway went to marina square soon after... went there and had a walk around finding punching bag? LOL~ wu liao lor... punching bag just to train punching... never train kicking=.= a bit unbalance siea... well we had dinner... KFC, sick of fastfood already... well just chunk down lor~ went home after that... on the way to MRT di siao deston... reach yishun and walked back home singing again~ LOL... have been singing lee hom song this few days... maybe his song can let me sing out my feels? whatever... okay i'll stop here... nights~
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Question in you looking for an answer?
answer or just knowledge?
how many kind of love are there? too much to tell... it's all depends on human thoughts again... but there's few which mostly seen... let's take a care for example... a partner who show his care so much that to let the other know he really care... some doesn't show his care much but inside them, they really care... all this are due to the past of how that person live and gain their understanding from what they see, how they feel and who there were with... but care doesn't mean a plain caring for somebody... they want their partner to understand them more that caring... in couple, one must be understanding and able to accept what the partner is and what they are... and most importantly trust~ no matter how understand they are, still trust is needed to build up the relationship stronger... relationship is like building a home, trust is a pillar for the house and bricks are like stuff you sacrifice to the R/S... putting on the glue to it was like stuff and secret you share between each other... paintings are stuff you done together making wonderful memories... so the importance in a R/S is trust and the others are something to build up a warm cozy home... building a home also need a plan of course... and it usually start off by either one which commit the most to the R/S... i guess i should stop off here...
My thoughts for the day~
haiz... people really don't treasure their chance when they had it... i want a chance also couldn't have it... just one from her i feel contented liaoz... no one had given me any chance at all... what to do in the hush world? have to work to survive since young... no chance to have what i wanted... no chance to voice out what i wanted... no chance to go out where i wanted... so i'll be crazy over someone i really love... because i don't want to miss the chance since they're here already... but still no chance given? i really tired of waiting for chance and make chance myself... well for now i will try get my chance to tell her?
Daily stuff:
yo~ today work up around 6:45 and off preparing to meet mei around 7plus she said =.= 7plus? 7.59? 7.29? dun have a popper answer from her... she told me would sms me before she's done... and it's 7:50 still no sms so i went off and called her on my way... she told me she was OUT already... in the end i took 969 alone to tam... she tell me to meet at school gate? turn out to be in class ~.~ okay nothing much happen in class... or should i say lazy to write out all event? LOL~ called Linda to help me with some stuff that a customer wanted... and made a few arrangement for them... after all i also no commission... just doing it to feel contented to accomplish something? well SUEN never come to school! chicken pox!!! hahaha.. ops forgot i myself haven't get and chicken pox... well Soh took over him for 2 weeks~ good siar... but he like keep talking about something else... whatever since the rest could understand him better... but what i feel was his talk is making the one's who already understand feel more tired... he let us off around 1:33pm... damn early, so we went to look for our new locker... doesn't seem useful to me anyway... it's so far and almost the other end of the tech block... after that went to an area near our next class to slack~ yea! slack untill >.< sleepy... after school never send kah yi home~ she don't need! lol~ reach home quite early because i squeeze into the bus again... just wanted to get home early and rest... nap abit and had maggie mee for dinner... after that writing this blog liaoz... i don't know how to ask her such question... couldn't have the chance too... i'm like an idiot?
how many kind of love are there? too much to tell... it's all depends on human thoughts again... but there's few which mostly seen... let's take a care for example... a partner who show his care so much that to let the other know he really care... some doesn't show his care much but inside them, they really care... all this are due to the past of how that person live and gain their understanding from what they see, how they feel and who there were with... but care doesn't mean a plain caring for somebody... they want their partner to understand them more that caring... in couple, one must be understanding and able to accept what the partner is and what they are... and most importantly trust~ no matter how understand they are, still trust is needed to build up the relationship stronger... relationship is like building a home, trust is a pillar for the house and bricks are like stuff you sacrifice to the R/S... putting on the glue to it was like stuff and secret you share between each other... paintings are stuff you done together making wonderful memories... so the importance in a R/S is trust and the others are something to build up a warm cozy home... building a home also need a plan of course... and it usually start off by either one which commit the most to the R/S... i guess i should stop off here...
My thoughts for the day~
haiz... people really don't treasure their chance when they had it... i want a chance also couldn't have it... just one from her i feel contented liaoz... no one had given me any chance at all... what to do in the hush world? have to work to survive since young... no chance to have what i wanted... no chance to voice out what i wanted... no chance to go out where i wanted... so i'll be crazy over someone i really love... because i don't want to miss the chance since they're here already... but still no chance given? i really tired of waiting for chance and make chance myself... well for now i will try get my chance to tell her?
Daily stuff:
yo~ today work up around 6:45 and off preparing to meet mei around 7plus she said =.= 7plus? 7.59? 7.29? dun have a popper answer from her... she told me would sms me before she's done... and it's 7:50 still no sms so i went off and called her on my way... she told me she was OUT already... in the end i took 969 alone to tam... she tell me to meet at school gate? turn out to be in class ~.~ okay nothing much happen in class... or should i say lazy to write out all event? LOL~ called Linda to help me with some stuff that a customer wanted... and made a few arrangement for them... after all i also no commission... just doing it to feel contented to accomplish something? well SUEN never come to school! chicken pox!!! hahaha.. ops forgot i myself haven't get and chicken pox... well Soh took over him for 2 weeks~ good siar... but he like keep talking about something else... whatever since the rest could understand him better... but what i feel was his talk is making the one's who already understand feel more tired... he let us off around 1:33pm... damn early, so we went to look for our new locker... doesn't seem useful to me anyway... it's so far and almost the other end of the tech block... after that went to an area near our next class to slack~ yea! slack untill >.< sleepy... after school never send kah yi home~ she don't need! lol~ reach home quite early because i squeeze into the bus again... just wanted to get home early and rest... nap abit and had maggie mee for dinner... after that writing this blog liaoz... i don't know how to ask her such question... couldn't have the chance too... i'm like an idiot?
post for the past 4 day~
My thoughts?
say out no need pay money? yea no need pay money... but saying something will have other price to pay... like trust, pride, honor and future is being paid for what you've said... that's why i told everyone not to look into money as the value! money can be visual and physical seen but trust, pride , honor and future can't... once you say something you still have to pay a price no matter which you had pay you wont know till it's over... don't make a promise if you can't do it! don't break a promise if you made it! don't swear, swearing is like having a 3rd party to maintain the trust like 1 to 1 to 1... what kind of 3rd party? god or friend? which ever it is i don't trust... god wont punish ever you didn't keep what you've said... friend wont punish you either... so what's the point of swearing? promise is a 1 to 1, it take only 2 person to make the deal... more safer and trustful... as i mention on the previous post something like a middle-man... whatever it is... think, consider and plan out before promising someone... that's all for now... it's 2:22am already... nights...
6 July 2009
woke up early today... listen to music and went singing myself without noticing i was singing... well was being ignored and felt so down... decide not to go for lunch... don't wish to show my emo face there... call up von mei to go school together later on... then went off to my pillow... water all out as much as i could... then bathed and ate biscuit... walk to mrt again doing the same stuff... walked too slow was late to meet mei... LOL~ ps la... didn't mean to be late... she wait for me at bishan... meet up with her saw ervin~ he went to mei house today... lent mei my psp to play LOL~ well i sing my song she play her game ervin stare the screen! haha~ reach school a little late... went up saw deston in class already! rare! well went in class i still wanted to sing... i couldn't get over with it... so sang thought out the whole lesson... as usual they have their fun and i watch... don't really have the mood to join them today... break time i went to cafe 2 with des and ervin... have a chicken rice... because feeling hungry... ate the rice like eating a plain bread... no taste again... haiz... rct end early so we went cafe 1... some of them have their dinner? i brought ice-cream with ben... had the ice-cream like having ice in mouth too... have my world gone plain? haiz... whatever... care lesson was next... talk about h1n1 lor~ then soh gave a little
nwt lesson on 7 layer... although he talk a lot useless stuff but at least people understand what he was teaching about... after lesson they had conversation with the group leader and class rep. haiz... when they come out our group have conversation again... no mood to join them still... they talk their stuff i listen... keep walking round and round around them... keeping myself company... after that went home lehs... reach home never bath... went to lie down abit searching into my own feeling... i couldn't take the ignoring anymore... i'm gonna be crazy for that... i feel so unwanted... deston called me telling me about his audi gf... he broke up with her because of immature thoughts of human... soon after have a class conversation and kah yi told us she broke up with her bf... haiz... she wanted a protection from him... well i guess i could lent a hand? send her home ba since i have no gf to protect for... but it's for temporary~ haha! got the urge to ask someone what she really want me to... i couldn't take it anymore... anyway she went off... so ask her tomorrow? or should i? whatever... meeting mei again tomorrow for school again? we'll see... good night to anyone who read my blog...
5 July 2009
woke up around 7 read plurk... feeling down again just like yesterday... walk to mrt singing off again... don't really feel good although i sang so many song... and lucky today got empty seat on train~ well gave it to an old auntie at amk station... work was okay... a little more customer that saturday... at least customer asked few question~ then Li an told me to keep promotion stuff at 7pm >.< alone with 4 set-up only got 150mins to finish it... haiz... what ever~ lunch time is here very soon... no mood to eat at all... but went to buy macdonald... because canteen never open! ate with galina... today mom and aunt came to visit me at work... well went around showing them my products and brought them to meet some of the da jie working there beside me... lol they all say my mom and aunt looks young... they're in their 40's and 50's! they guess both of them in their 30's going 40's! LOL omg~ i'm 21 now and my mom only 40? HAHA! they also laugh~ bunch of crazy da jie's~ well went arounf the 4th level with my mom shopping with them... well dinner time came... don't have the mood to eat again... went to 5th floor to look whatever i could get for dinner... brought long john and stuff down my food... don't have taste to me when i'm not in mood... well back to work i started packing the stuff at 6pm ignoring the time they told me to... because the store for the product is messy and it's quite full la~ don't know how to pack it liao siar... everything in there was a mess... so i just pack whatever i could... galina came to help me too... around 9pm we both gave up... too many wine cups have wrong coding... and i still have another product to move... i rested 5 mins and off to clear the bodrum... well just put all stuff in the basket and let the promoter for tomorrow to handle it... well chatted with the staff after clearing all and it was already 9:40! way passed my knock off time! hope got count for the OT... well went back yishun and walk home again... sang all i could with my slow walk~ wasn't feeling well after reaching home... feeling giddy... maybe today really had been busy with numbers makes me feel giddy? whatever... brought a bottle of juice with 5%alcohol and sat at the void deck enjoying them... no alcohol could get me drunk... so it's useless to feel down and went for drink... haiz... how i wish i could get drunk... and forget whatever had happen... reach home and bathed... tomorrow school start le~ plurk again and made myself so pissed by some people... as if i like people to shoot me siar... this part will be on the previous post... you could read from there... went to sleep soon after chatting with my friend on msn...
4 July 2009
was up early to work again... woke up so early and having problem looking at the time... LOL~ well was having a boring day... customer flow was okay but not much came to look into my products... well was counting stock with linda soon after she came... i like doing stock taking and arrange~ haha... because it was really a mess in the store... i kept calling linda back after we done with the stock taking! because i went treasure hunting in the store and keep finding stuff! LOL~ well after she left JM called me asking if i wanted to go out... DUH! i'm working near ur house! lol he was actually shopping with cat and hl... actually he planned to come out with our old friends but he only send a few and other was cancel... so he didn't notice until today he called kai ask why never come LOL~ she told him she never receive any sms~ LOL! well they came to look for me at shaw centre~ keep telling him Level 4 house hold 3 times siar~ pek chek... then i went to punch card go shop with them awhile skipping my dinner! don't feel like eating... no mood to eat also... around 45min pass i went back to work till 8pm then went to find them~ cat went to her friend birthday so left with jm and hl... they were having dinner at hong kong bla bla bla... forgotten the name liao... well they left some food and ask me have the rest >.< i really have no mood to eat lehs... anyway give them some face since they left some for me... haiz... at least something in my stomach... a reward for myself after a day of hardwork? whatever~ after that pei jm walk to orchard mrt and he bus-ed home... me and hl take mrt~ had small chat with her about the girl i like? because they already know~ jm that big mouth! LOL~ anyway i wont keep much secrets from them... because they're the few who know me more than any friend... well if i had gf i would have told them first too... it's our deal within our group~ hahaz... reaching katib mrt i send hl home and carried-on chatting... well after sending her home i walked back and kept singing song with my mp3~ an hour walk home and sang which ever song i like... hahaz~ because my feeling is very bad due to something... no bike so sing also would be better... well i sang until i... what ever... reach home around 11 plus... bathed and online~ and off to sleep again... due to working full shift again...
say out no need pay money? yea no need pay money... but saying something will have other price to pay... like trust, pride, honor and future is being paid for what you've said... that's why i told everyone not to look into money as the value! money can be visual and physical seen but trust, pride , honor and future can't... once you say something you still have to pay a price no matter which you had pay you wont know till it's over... don't make a promise if you can't do it! don't break a promise if you made it! don't swear, swearing is like having a 3rd party to maintain the trust like 1 to 1 to 1... what kind of 3rd party? god or friend? which ever it is i don't trust... god wont punish ever you didn't keep what you've said... friend wont punish you either... so what's the point of swearing? promise is a 1 to 1, it take only 2 person to make the deal... more safer and trustful... as i mention on the previous post something like a middle-man... whatever it is... think, consider and plan out before promising someone... that's all for now... it's 2:22am already... nights...
6 July 2009
woke up early today... listen to music and went singing myself without noticing i was singing... well was being ignored and felt so down... decide not to go for lunch... don't wish to show my emo face there... call up von mei to go school together later on... then went off to my pillow... water all out as much as i could... then bathed and ate biscuit... walk to mrt again doing the same stuff... walked too slow was late to meet mei... LOL~ ps la... didn't mean to be late... she wait for me at bishan... meet up with her saw ervin~ he went to mei house today... lent mei my psp to play LOL~ well i sing my song she play her game ervin stare the screen! haha~ reach school a little late... went up saw deston in class already! rare! well went in class i still wanted to sing... i couldn't get over with it... so sang thought out the whole lesson... as usual they have their fun and i watch... don't really have the mood to join them today... break time i went to cafe 2 with des and ervin... have a chicken rice... because feeling hungry... ate the rice like eating a plain bread... no taste again... haiz... rct end early so we went cafe 1... some of them have their dinner? i brought ice-cream with ben... had the ice-cream like having ice in mouth too... have my world gone plain? haiz... whatever... care lesson was next... talk about h1n1 lor~ then soh gave a little
nwt lesson on 7 layer... although he talk a lot useless stuff but at least people understand what he was teaching about... after lesson they had conversation with the group leader and class rep. haiz... when they come out our group have conversation again... no mood to join them still... they talk their stuff i listen... keep walking round and round around them... keeping myself company... after that went home lehs... reach home never bath... went to lie down abit searching into my own feeling... i couldn't take the ignoring anymore... i'm gonna be crazy for that... i feel so unwanted... deston called me telling me about his audi gf... he broke up with her because of immature thoughts of human... soon after have a class conversation and kah yi told us she broke up with her bf... haiz... she wanted a protection from him... well i guess i could lent a hand? send her home ba since i have no gf to protect for... but it's for temporary~ haha! got the urge to ask someone what she really want me to... i couldn't take it anymore... anyway she went off... so ask her tomorrow? or should i? whatever... meeting mei again tomorrow for school again? we'll see... good night to anyone who read my blog...
5 July 2009
woke up around 7 read plurk... feeling down again just like yesterday... walk to mrt singing off again... don't really feel good although i sang so many song... and lucky today got empty seat on train~ well gave it to an old auntie at amk station... work was okay... a little more customer that saturday... at least customer asked few question~ then Li an told me to keep promotion stuff at 7pm >.< alone with 4 set-up only got 150mins to finish it... haiz... what ever~ lunch time is here very soon... no mood to eat at all... but went to buy macdonald... because canteen never open! ate with galina... today mom and aunt came to visit me at work... well went around showing them my products and brought them to meet some of the da jie working there beside me... lol they all say my mom and aunt looks young... they're in their 40's and 50's! they guess both of them in their 30's going 40's! LOL omg~ i'm 21 now and my mom only 40? HAHA! they also laugh~ bunch of crazy da jie's~ well went arounf the 4th level with my mom shopping with them... well dinner time came... don't have the mood to eat again... went to 5th floor to look whatever i could get for dinner... brought long john and stuff down my food... don't have taste to me when i'm not in mood... well back to work i started packing the stuff at 6pm ignoring the time they told me to... because the store for the product is messy and it's quite full la~ don't know how to pack it liao siar... everything in there was a mess... so i just pack whatever i could... galina came to help me too... around 9pm we both gave up... too many wine cups have wrong coding... and i still have another product to move... i rested 5 mins and off to clear the bodrum... well just put all stuff in the basket and let the promoter for tomorrow to handle it... well chatted with the staff after clearing all and it was already 9:40! way passed my knock off time! hope got count for the OT... well went back yishun and walk home again... sang all i could with my slow walk~ wasn't feeling well after reaching home... feeling giddy... maybe today really had been busy with numbers makes me feel giddy? whatever... brought a bottle of juice with 5%alcohol and sat at the void deck enjoying them... no alcohol could get me drunk... so it's useless to feel down and went for drink... haiz... how i wish i could get drunk... and forget whatever had happen... reach home and bathed... tomorrow school start le~ plurk again and made myself so pissed by some people... as if i like people to shoot me siar... this part will be on the previous post... you could read from there... went to sleep soon after chatting with my friend on msn...
4 July 2009
was up early to work again... woke up so early and having problem looking at the time... LOL~ well was having a boring day... customer flow was okay but not much came to look into my products... well was counting stock with linda soon after she came... i like doing stock taking and arrange~ haha... because it was really a mess in the store... i kept calling linda back after we done with the stock taking! because i went treasure hunting in the store and keep finding stuff! LOL~ well after she left JM called me asking if i wanted to go out... DUH! i'm working near ur house! lol he was actually shopping with cat and hl... actually he planned to come out with our old friends but he only send a few and other was cancel... so he didn't notice until today he called kai ask why never come LOL~ she told him she never receive any sms~ LOL! well they came to look for me at shaw centre~ keep telling him Level 4 house hold 3 times siar~ pek chek... then i went to punch card go shop with them awhile skipping my dinner! don't feel like eating... no mood to eat also... around 45min pass i went back to work till 8pm then went to find them~ cat went to her friend birthday so left with jm and hl... they were having dinner at hong kong bla bla bla... forgotten the name liao... well they left some food and ask me have the rest >.< i really have no mood to eat lehs... anyway give them some face since they left some for me... haiz... at least something in my stomach... a reward for myself after a day of hardwork? whatever~ after that pei jm walk to orchard mrt and he bus-ed home... me and hl take mrt~ had small chat with her about the girl i like? because they already know~ jm that big mouth! LOL~ anyway i wont keep much secrets from them... because they're the few who know me more than any friend... well if i had gf i would have told them first too... it's our deal within our group~ hahaz... reaching katib mrt i send hl home and carried-on chatting... well after sending her home i walked back and kept singing song with my mp3~ an hour walk home and sang which ever song i like... hahaz~ because my feeling is very bad due to something... no bike so sing also would be better... well i sang until i... what ever... reach home around 11 plus... bathed and online~ and off to sleep again... due to working full shift again...
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