YaDa! i hate to be alone...

sorry readers~ didn't have the mood of posting the blog... well, didn't had the feel today either but still i'm doing it >.< not for readers or anyone but just doing it for no reason...

i'm always doing things without anybody knowing or any reason... just think if it's no business with anyone then no problem doing it... i would never be close to anyone... if anything ever happen to me, i don't want them to remember me...

now, not anymore... i want just someone to know i'm here for... at least i'm alive with...

here are the over due post~ LOL!

didn't went out this few days because my burned skin is damn terrible... and resting at home not feeling well...

21 Sep 2009
woke up feeling whole body was burned... well, heck it and watch some show~ even the wind from the fan feels so hot and painful on my skin >.< sun-burn even though my skin wasn't off since sentosa...

20 Sep 2009
was a little tired from the BBQ yet woke up at 7am just to go fishing~ patience training for me? Nande? joke sia...

i was roasting myself in the sun because yesterday actually had earth quake at thailand and due to that not much fish would bite... we didn't read the news and was like idiot fishing on hari raya LOL!

well i did lots of strength training too LOL! pulling the anchor most of the time haha...

didn't expect my uncle to come with us~ because he was suppose to be in USA working... i had a good chat with him making lots of jokes about the fish that are poison...

puffer fish = BALL BALL FISH
(when they puff it will looks like a ball[i got a 3kg before~ totally must cut away the line...])
eel = Good game fish
(they will keep rolling with the fishing lines making u have to cut it...)
shark or catfish = Expressway fish
(because they always swim at wide area...)
stone fish = GEEGEE fish
(because it makes a sound like GEEGEE when u remove the hooks...)

when we're heading back dad hit a rock that couldn't be seen and we went pass that area lots of time... he broke the Fin of the motor~ $500+ gone LOL! lucky not i drive... luckily we have spare on board...

police checked on us at night >.< bo liao sia... waste our time... just because there's a boat with Da Ren Wu just 30 meters away from out boat...

went home like a roasted pig~ and body was burning so hot that my thermometer shows 37.6 degree! not really having a fever but sun-burn so badly~ LOLz

(Sumanai... some photos didn't rotate...)
there there... the Captain's Wheel! LOL...


Back View on board... (you see, there's no place to walk on at the sea...)


Front View form far~


19 Sep 2009
YEP~ was on BBQ on Sat with cousin~ didn't take any photo since i didn't had a good camera...

well, i was hoping some cousin from malaysia could attend this but they doesn't seems free...

it'd rained! anyway i bet they sure had lots of fun building a tent over a pit LOL! that's insane~ we all did put in some effort to make it perfect...

the food was nice~ i would recommand you guys to try www.bbqwholesale.com! but to warn you not to buy their small stuff like fork,spoon or ETC because it's quite expensive...

Miss those days didn't we? especially grandma...


Singapore cousin outing day! only 1 didn't turn up (Yan Xin!)
LOL... almost 3/4 brought their partners~ (LOH SIM YEE! where is yours?)
bloody hell, few of them really did ask question i didn't wanted to hear...


Family~ (Younger sister, Father, Me, Mother, Elder sister and her BF~)

hi readers... sorry didn't update my blog yesterday... wasn't really having the mood of doing that...

so fast it's going into weekend... i suppose to work but not anymore... getting bored at home for days... cleaning here and there =.= sleeping late like every night playing games that already bores me...

yaya... i know i'm getting emo again hahaz... just couldn't take it being lonely... it's finally the 4th year... of being alone or single if it means...

Arh ah~ why am i counting useless stuff... well i'm looking forward now... but it seems that it wasn't ready... still waiting...

sometimes people doesn't get to understand me... what i'm doing or what i'm thinking... anything need a reason to be done? then so be it...

i only trust, believe and reach out for those i choose... i would never regret nor suspect, because they're what i've understands and believed in...

everything has a point of it being there... just look at it in a different ways, it might show... and doing something need no reason for... it's something which that person think it's right to be done...

just remember... nobody could ever see what others had been through... even they had the same thinking, but surely there will be a time where both doesn't think the same...

going off now~ good night...

Tree is regrowing again :D


New beach/park would be build there...
it means my old playground is gone >.<


just took for fun LOL...
life is like a road with cliff... lose a step and you might fall off...

i'm tired...

Welcome back dear readers! today didn't have much to write... because i didn't step out of house... i'm going into an insane rotting speed! someone help! just date me out!!!

Had been wondering for the past few days... why i imagine things that i hope for just to push myself... it's quite a tiring thing and after i stop imagine it, i felt somehow lonely and mood-less for what ever i'm doing... By watching drama/anime are just jealous about their story... although i felt the up and downs for the character it's somewhat came to me that i'm still alone... my main point was, how long am i going to imagine of myself being love? another year? haiz... couldn't have more energy to imagine more that few day anymore...

Changed blog song to chinese~ tired to search for english song/music now...

Wont be working as promoter i guess... it doesn't suit me? standing there waiting to serve? So sorry, couldn't do that~ for my current feelings, i would want to rush and work myself till i had no time to imagine...

Don't want the one's i love to give me hope if they doesn't have any feelings for me... i'm somebody who would make everything positive, someone who enjoy just being with the one's i love...
Anything could be destroy by the words from the one's i love... just simply draw a line from me or i would have another hope from/for the one's i love...

i'll be stopping here! Good night readers...


hard a hard time cleaning~
LOVE the result and another self satisfied day...


last night weather forecast was a rainy day! BUT! today it seems windy...

Clean Cleaning Clean-ed

HI~ changing a little of my post style again... today woke up late... was awake because feeling damn hot! lol... the sun burn got worst~ more red then last night... slack in bed till afternoon skipped breakfast and lunch... then saw dad taking lots of stuff to his room... so went to check it out~ he was having his air-con chemical washed and also my sisters room too... he was trying a new way of washing instead of our standard way... trying out on yourself before doing it on others? hahaz... well it'd been a year since we service our air-con... dad didn't plan on cleaning my air-con =.= well i felt mine doesn't feel windy anymore so borrow water-vacuum from his van~ took my own sweet time cleaning trying to get the jelly out and make it spotless! haha... well, i'm doing it ALL! for the first time... because i wanted to clean my room myself! and also have been watching dad doing the same thing since 8years old~ yep that's when i also followed him around working... i only do cleaning and carry the stuff since 8... took a photo of vacuumed clean and chemical clean... felt satisfied after testing it... no leak and no weird things happened! brought back the vacuum to dad's van again... sunburn was quite a pain when wearing a shirt >.< anyway doesn't restrict me much... went to had a nap after those cleaning and woke up cleaning my room again LOL! i must be insane cleaning whole day without reason... and today fix up my cpu plus cleaning the whole of it too! i'm doing it because i'm bored... CH didn't call me to meet him as he planned... it's ok, i don't mind because he had to company his gf too... cousin outing is coming so soon~ saturday it would be of... if any of my cousin is reading, please don't ask me (why never bring GF?/Got GF already?/why haven't find a GF?) i'm sick of it already... it's not i don't want, i have no idea about myself... i don't know why i was not given a chance either... it feel sucks of myself everytime you guys asked me... anyway i did lots of cleaning today ;P cupboard of one was always empty >.< well, it was for GF to put her stuff... today i'll be stopping at the photo i taken! LOL~ i'll continue cleaning tomorrow and pack my stuff too... haiz, so lonely for the holiday... nobody is free to lim kopi... today was satisfied by my own cleaning~ haha... yep, i'm satisfied easily as usual LOL! good night dear readers ^^


The difference of After and before >.<



Chemical cleaned... (by father)

Vacum-ed cleaned... (BY ME!!!)



At the Yishun damp catching some wind with friends~
(someone took it with my phone and happen to be found by me today =.=)




After last exam~ on our way to K-box! (sorry didn't take photo in K-box...)

Forgive and forget~

hi readers... saw my title? could you do that? well i believe not many could do it when it happens on them... anyway i wont want to care~ doesn't want to crack my brain over small matters... being told of self weakness and we should accept it and learn over weakness learning to be a better person but we could never be perfect... no matter how good you are, there's people who dislike something from you... skipped 2 days of work... hope i wont have to skip another day due to personal reason anymore... well someone guessed my first wish... it was not to be alone anymore... what are buddies/mei's/friends? they have to leave you soon after they had their partners... i had enough of being lonesome... that came in of finding a GF that could company her with or by her company me... i don't mind having to go reaching for her everyday as long as she doesn't mind... and of course i wont mind if she were to find me anytime but not forcing me to spent my studies/work time just to company her... it the reason for finding a understanding one... who also could trust me? in fact i'm too straight forward to make up a story to lie... wasn't much of my way to crack another brain cells for that either... you may call me lazy but i'm just avoiding thinking too much... but i could still have restrict on others secrets... well i couldn't think of what secret i have myself either... LOL~ does it matter? i hope i could meet my Princess soon... as i'm getting tired of waiting... falling asleep soon :P Yea, i'm feeling out of energy to push myself forward anymore... just making my dreams feel true to me, at least it's something that making me felt i'm needed... alright, i'll be stopping here for the day as i'm tired... good night...