my words for you... (edited)

To Xin:
i know you've been reading here... i didn't want to post anything about you... but i have no where to talk with you or you wont listen either? anyway, this post here would only be about you because i read your blog and felt that i want you to know... so i'm leaving the chance to you, if you want to read it or ignore it... i'm starting at the next paragraph...

lots of parents doesn't really know how to put words when they talk with their kids... she said that interest could be improve, actually she's trying to tell you to find the interest about this course... and because the school started not long so you might not seen the interest of it... also she doesn't want you to waste another year for another course because alot people stepped into society and wouldn't go back to study... yes! all parents see their child as kids no matter the age are, because no matter what we gone through they're still ahead of you and they will always be... they didn't want you to regret after making wrong decisions... although they may have not feel you but they could see part of the picture and trying to have you choose a better path... cannot say much more here... the blog is limited... i don't know if you have read to the end or not... and i don't know it might help you understand... but all i could say is, us being the person of no child couldn't understand the person who is a parent of a child... a child could be rebellious when they seek freedom but freedom always cost something... a parent could control their child but would have conflict and disagreement but still their heart is the first to be soften, because nothing could be more important than their own blood and flesh...

My Thoughts?
even i doesn't stand any place in you i would still be there whenever you call... although i don't say it out or write it out, inside me there will always be a place for you to put things... my room is big enough for anything you want to put it and it's only meant for you... just give me a msg or call i'll be there to listen for your worries, problems, troubles or anything... i would just be there...

My Feeling? [unknown by the current self...]
i don't know where i should stand... neither at the any where my view is i still can't get the picture of the whole universe... it's too wide too tall and it's 780 degree... no matter where i turn it's still the universe... endless and no where to be at... feeling empty and lonely? only place i can get to is where the one who look for me and miss me...

29 July 2009
HI~ today post early because there is a purpose for it... today woke up at 8am but wasn't feeling well to go school so took my time slowly prepare for school... reach school around 10am lol... was dozing off in bus again... can't help it for this few days... reach the class saw Soh was teaching? don't know why but i rather he teach us than Suen... listen to his lectures but didn't really do the job he told us to... didn't intend to do at home either due to work... the lesson was extended due to his lecture and all of us felt hungry... they decided to go tampines for lunch so i just follow... don't feel like giving suggestions or recommend nowadays... went up the bus but xiang nv board it with us because his waiting for his friend... so we waited for him at the interchange and decided to have KFC for lunch? went to the KFC after awhile deston came... i had a very full meal today because have to work later on~ and had to go home for dinner? after meals some already decide not to go back for the next lesson... because Suen is the one teaching for the next lesson... went to tampines mall because xin want to buy a note book? and deston want to find what his bestie brought for him... look around in Tampines mall xin didn't find what she wanted and deston went around guessing all possible things... but to me all his guessing wasn't really practical or possible to what they've gave the clue for him... after walking went to tampines 1 to walk a little more? xin brought her note book there... then we walk out of Tampines 1 playing open numbers to decide if we're going back to school? infact i can feel non of them wanted to... just being force by the attendance? whatever it is, for the next sem. i guess i would rush my studies but not this sem. lor... but i guess i have to revise soon after deston chalet... hmm, took train with mei and ervin... was very sleepy in train also... fell asleep soon after lending my psp to ervin... went off at orchard and to tangs plaza... was very confuse at the stuff i had to check on... because i didn't work in tangs before... started counting the stock at 3.30pm and finish all at 4.50pm... went to isetan to double check the stuff again and linda came looking for me... after i finish went to gelina counter and she flirt with linda LOL... BTH gelina, always so les. with promoter or friends there... went to ion orchard with linda and train home... walk home as usual, ate my dinner and blogged soon after... okay i'm stopping here le... thanks for reading...