exam coming soon~ (edited 11:01PM)

so sorry didn't post anything for the pass few days~ well the visits are getting lesser anyway... exam is coming up and yet i'm still fooling around LOL~ as promise to all for putting anew song every 3 day... hope all of you would like it because those are song that flow my feelings for the day... yep i'm so sick, so sick of love song... if there's a memory ease machine, i would like to use it... forgetting all of whom i loved... just to make myself feel better inside... because i'm stubborn inside of me... not letting go of those i love... yea, i'm saying those 3... way too hard to forget and irreplaceable... i tried and it still would come back soon... work till no time, play game where there's no day or night, organize gathering event for all friends and even went out with those who loved me so much... and yet i can't... hope one day something might just hit my head and forget everything~ anyway now having a weight from both... School and ISC... well school is more heavier than ISC but lots of people push me for ISC which i don't think it was my goal... money wise? i don't care... still waiting for someone to charge me up... no energy for school or work and speaking of ISC even no energy to go for... stopping here now playing games with JIA YI LOL!

By some random people LOL!
1. How do you and Deston Mah's talents add up?
ZERO!
2. If Jia Yi were to be mistaken for a celebrity, who would it be?

3. Who would be a better superhero sidekick between Yong Xiang and Deston Mah, and why?
Yong Xiang! BAKEMONO!~
4. Do you miss Song Kiat?
Miss those days we had~
5. What's Henry Tay's opinion on cheese?
EewW! can i have more?
6. What do you think about Foo Hui Xin?
Go where? do what? don't know...
7. Do you miss Gerald Tay?
Maybe? maybe not?
8. Who is Lim Wei He's best friend?
Pei Kiat
9. Who does Jim Ming like?
o.O? Hui Ling?
10. Hot Yvvone Goh on Gerald Tay action - Yes/No?
ehhhhh~ no?

Have an open mind!

Things just keep going where i didn't hope it would take place... well still it has happen so just let it be and find another way to see in it... it looks bad but i guess it's still isn't as bad as it look... i'm twisting everything back to how it was suppose to be? or i'm making it worst? i'll see the result soon... lately don't have the will's of doing anything much~ just wasting my time on sleeps and staring in the space... having no pushing force, having no energy and having no loved... all which brings me no feeling of doing anything but waiting and waiting for the right one to come... i'm not a person who would build up something meaningless and doesn't even had a reason for it... it means i wont waste a time for something that doesn't related to me or my close ones... so currently there's nothing/nobody who would need me so i'm just wasting time... i wont go after any more girls, it's meaningless for a no response to me... hell with it if no trust was placed on me... die with it if you think i'm acting... i'm plain simple, no secrets, straight forward and only trust it always are to... and simply understands if you are to tell me and explains... i listen and give opinion but i don't suspect and i don't quarrel... i would use all my means to understand and put trust... that's just a plain simple me...


Lyric of: Happy people

Everybody Stand Up
Minna tatakattenda
Naishin wa fuan da demo
Keep Your Head Right Up
To tha Sky

Donna toki mo (Oh Yeah!)
Doko ni ite mo (Oh Yeah!)
Just Call me anytime (Oh Yeah!)
CHIKARA ni naru yo

Happypeople's In The House
TAFUna egao de
Happypeople's In The House
Ikite yuku no sa

Ki ni sunna My Brother
Kimi rashikute iin da
Naitatte My Sister
Mata waraeba iin da

Shinkokyuu shite (Oh Yeah!)
Yorimichi shite (Oh Yeah!)
It's All In Your Mind (Oh Yeah!)
Kaze ni fukarete

Happypeople's In The House
RAFUna yasashisa de
Happypeople's In The House
Choudo ii kara
Happypeople's In The House
Naite waratte
Happypeople's In The House
Motto tooku e

CHIKARA ni naru yo
Happypeople's In The House
TAFUna egao de
Happypeople's In The House
Ikite yuku no sa
Happypeople's In The House
"Hitori ja nai" tte
Happypeople's In The House
KIMI ga waratta

there's always something going on...

hi hi~ i'm back! well felt that i've been rotting at home so decided to write something here at least? LOL... lately doesn't feel right to go out of house so stayed at home rotting all day... choose this song for the day "life is like a boat" felt that it really suit the mood i am in now... nobody truly understand me nor know anything much about me... my smiles have cover all? putting up a happy looking mask was uncomfortable and tiring... only loneliness existed in me which made my anger shows easily... i understand how much pain it was for being lonely... i've understand it all and i'm moving forward to for someone who will give me a chance to understand me... i would give my heart and everything i got for the only "you"... everything that no others could and i would be the best you've ever seen... enough of that >.< later taking exam hope my brain would work well... my brain store so much but didn't actually have the time to look back at everything...

Days weeks month and finally 4 years, it still going on and on.
those lonely day i passes by, only chill of cold to my heart.
there a part of me that can't let everything go, for the past i've been through.
thing are getting too much for my hand, thing were slipping through my finger.
time was still ticking, i'm still chasing after but still losing to it.
i'm exhausted from chasing so i've stopped, giving myself a little rest.
i'll be going on after when i found someone, someone who to go after with.
i would stick with my partner, as long as she won't give up upon me.
now i'm just under the tree waiting, waiting for that somebody to pass-by.
neither any of them has given me chance nor understanding, i'm just plain waiting.
one day someone like "her" would pass by, it'd be soon i believe in...


Life is like a boat lyrics:

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Tookude iki wo shiteru toumei ni nattamitai
Kurayami ni omoe takedo mekaku shisarete tadake
Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

Hito no kokoro wa utsuri yuku nukedashita kunaru
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo tsureteku

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I... see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

Tabi wa mada tsudzuiteku odayakana hi mo
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo terashidasu
Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Unmei no fune wo kogi
Nami wa tsugi kara tsugi e to
Watashitachi wo osou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne
Dore mo suteki na tabi ne

Anger? hate? Neither...

hihi HI! hahaz... i think i would never be able to hold hate or anger for that long... a day passes and poof~ anger disappear... i'm too much forgiving and understanding? this are which nobody believes that i was... people thoughts are getting more and more complicated? even i forgiven a person, that person would think i was only faking it... i've understand a person feeling , that person would think that i was just trying to be mature... this place is totally gone complicated as days passes... so damn tire of getting someone to understand me... and hope just a girl that would believe whom i really was... well with those hopes i felt lonely again >.< ah arhh~ just want to have a simple life where there's simple love that no lie, secret and objections... so worn out here sleeping more and more hoping the next day would be different... yet it doesn't just happen... require a warm hug and a pat on the back... just to cheer up myself? LOL... can't help myself for that either... can't think of who to blame for the current century we're in... not the girls or the boys, nor what's right and what's wrong... hmm read jia yi poem LOL~ can't understand what she written there... well i thought of something i felt it's lame... it's about how girls judge guy who love them? LOL~

when guys follow them:
stranger => Stalker/Pervert
guys they hate => Stalker
guys friend => friend only
guys they like => he like her
god brother => my brother only ma~
boyfriend => natural...

Time to give up...

Well... chosen 3 girls in my life yet i had no result in any... i guess it's time to give up... so tired being of a good guy... and yea~ i'm flirting with ALL girls now! well at least i could feel better this way? i would be back to how i was after finding a girl who really did love me or i'll kept on flirting~ it doesn't make any more difference being a good or bad guy... i'll just be whom ever i felt i wanted to be... maybe being bad is more fun than being so good... no body care if i thought of others, no body cares i did any thing... so from now on i would live how my moods goes~ i wont think of anymore what other feel/think! hate me if you are to, curse me if you like and kill me if you want... my life doesn't belong to think of you guys neither i was here to care... i'll be selfish, i'll be greedy, i'll be jerk and that would be me! so (F) OFF if you don't like...