Wondering of what?

hi readers... trying to find a suiting music for my mood but i don't even know what mood i'm in now >.< it's just too confusing for me too complicate to solve it... aww so i guess i'll have to just replace and music... i don't want to think so hard for what am i thinking or feeling... but one thing i was sure of... i'm still waiting, at the same place, same spot and same me... i had forgot why must i wait but i'm sure of what i'm waiting for was worth it... i might lost my sense but not my sanity as me... hai yo don't know what i was going to write... well, human wasn't perfect and so is they have their own thoughts... learn to accept them as who they were but don't hurt them... they also does have feelings... i wasn't perfect, i was greedy to start with... i wanted to be love, wanted a chance because i didn't want to be alone... i wanted someone who belongs to me... what are friends? gan mei? or even buddy? they can't be there for you forever... they said they wont leave you even though thy have their partners? it's just a matter of time... i'm so sick of that line, i've heard it so many times but all was just said to make me feel better? anyway i wanted so much i also would give but i don't know... maybe i would give her whatever i could to be her best boyfriend~ i would gave her my all... maybe it's not enough but i could only love her with my little cells even a soul ;P i'll stop here and off to sleep... good night...