it's time to look around...

it's time to give up the 3 girl i would choose from... i guess it's time to accept those who really love me deep? hmm... we'll see lor... choosen 3 and yet no results... was having quite a busy time with buddies and friends... maybe a little addicted to audi beat up mode! yea... it was fun playing beat up than the normal game there... well, not really that addicted to it but just taking it to kills my loneliness? hahaz... watch a show on wednesday saying about guys carrying their GF handbag/bags... well, i don't think so much about how other guys look on me when i carry my loved one's bag... it's not because of being gentleman or whatever... but it's like giving her more freely to shop without being afraid of bag being pick-pocketed or obstacle her from her shopping... and of course won't open her bag la... i know there's alot of mystery stuff in there LOL... i don't go into my GF stuff much anyway... it's a form of respect and trust between each other... went to watch (where got ghost today) ^^ was funny and laugh alot about it LOL! don't really scare me out but really made me laugh~ okay stopping it here don't want to spoil to those who have not watch it... and those who need a good laugh i would suggest you going for this movie ^^

i'm not wise but i'm have knowledge... i'm not clever but i'm smart... all was not i wanted to be, it's all from learning through experience... i yell no anger, yet i shout with courage... i hate no one, but i pity oneself... i believe no one but yet i had trust for all...

Move on and going further...

today was too tired slept till 1.30pm siar... totally missed school... well woke up and watch old movies >.< didn't have much to do so went to play audi listening to their music instead of playing :S okay... had sms-ed up to a thousand sms today >.< lucky me that i have unlimited sms LOL~ well, whose that fan of mine anyway? didn't expect i would have one LOL... okay going to sleep le... it's 1 am already...

things are hard to predict... anything that doesn't happen as what you predict of either it's bad or good it's the fact that it'd had happen... so no matter what you/we have to face it and made the choice... god doesn't make it happen but is the people around you who made it... and all the fact that is happening around is what the choice of each and everyone putting each and every effort to it...

fallen down does feel painful... but think of others who had fallen down more than you but yet they could still stand on their feet... have them as your idot but not to follow their path! made your own path, made your own choice and remember this... i'm always there to support all my friends decision and of course all my close one's...

Treasure your precious ones...

sorry i wasn't updating for the previous days... it's due to my work and company friends... i won't have all my stuff being typed out... tomorrow have to go for school! LOL... wednesday don't feel well so cycle whole day and went to look for deston after their school... supprise him with my creamy cake MUHAHA >.< thursday went to work instead of school LOL~ well... friday went to work then buy my new hp!(finaly!) and Club with deston and our company friends... wasn't really fun that night... and someone actually started to get drunk >.< well send him home and went home for few hours of sleep before my work start at 12noon... wasn't late for work~ phew! well there's a demo for our henckles pots... aunties are a swarm of honey bees when they smell honey :x well after work was planning to go out... infact too much date don't know which one to go for... wei jie call me out for lan gaming... deston call me out for dinner... jun ming ask me out to la kopi >.< well my choice was go out with y.sister to sing at Kbox to the morning! LOL well... went to eat and back home... so wu liao XD... sunday went out with parents and y.sister to northpoint to eat! had dinner there and shopped! father was like a cave-man saying something that makes him go there once in his life-time LOL~ well after that went home took deston peasant and off to meet him... actually wanted to meet hui ling group before going to meet them because deston always be late... well went to watch the firework... was such a let down by the firework this year... WALK! to eat, WALK! to play pool cab to hing house then CYCLE! to prawning at pungol LOL... end up prawning to the morning and cycle to deston house to cook the prawn >.< slept at his house and woke up upon times by deston stupid phone sms... then deston went to meet wee kiat while i go home with his bestie... we ate Sushi! lol... well went home making ZzZ again... okay that's all LOL~

Being with someone you loved wasn't that easy and it wasn't being fate... it's both of you who accepts each other... although being together bring happiness it's also does come with conflict... love them and treasure them before they're gone...

Don't stop? Don't regret...

Hi~ i'm back home so late >.< went cycling whole day... still couldn't decide ISC or school... well i would most probably stay for school as i haven't be ready for it... i haven't get my "needs" to go ISC... lol i don't feel that the pay was really attracting me as i still doesn't find my "force" to it... let's drop it and say what i need to say... don't think or see me so relaxing heck care of anything... i'm only watching over my circle... what circle? my group/friends... sorry to say i was always a key role of defense... i don't wish someone to break my group as i wont wish to hate someone... i've send my first warning if you can't feel it, i'm sorry to say... i have my limits too... i shall inform you about this... first it would be my friend to reject you by their own feels of you... if it doesn't work you shall smell my words with perfume... if you still couldn't get it it's ok... i wouldn't be nasty but i sure would let you feel awful... IF! you still can't stop... better don't let me smell you as you wouldn't like it... this words is already on the second line... don't push it anymore, thanks... i won't like to hate someone neither like to break the connection of any... it only hurt alot people, think twice again as i could only say...

i sworn to protect my love ones till they're settle down, i'm not the bodyguard but i would be their guardian, i love them as my closest ones... my wings are spread only for them... being their bodyguard i would protect them with my effort and those whom reached out for me... a guardian love the one they protect... a bodyguard, should not love your client...

where was i? oh yea... my songs was always meant to my feel... "Go on girl"... i'm fine... trust me i'll sure be fine... as i trust you that you've made your choice... to me now i just couldn't give you more advise... i couldn't just do it... "sorry, Blame it on me"... whatever i do/done all could just blame it on me... i started it and i'll take the blame... i understand there some problem and i'm not too bind to know... even though you might not show... i'm the reason for your pain... just put the blame on me i won't cry back... i'm sorry...

*Ps: if you think my buddy was to be afraid of, then i could suggest you to reconsider... being the longest bad guy doesn't make you the baddest of all... it doesn't matter at all...


Picture from the chalet taken by me :P (i felt that it's at the right post!)

changing of blog style...

hmm i would stop blogging daily events here and would write here as i felt what to put? hahaz! currently now feel like drawing and just a drawing book of my feel? where should i draw my picture in? couldn't find a best thing to draw... now i would rather draw picture than simple words... a picture can say a thousand words but a word could only be a word... a picture meant hundreds meaning but a word could only be few... maybe it's because something hit me hard? i think i made a mistake which i shouldn't even make... now i'm just waiting for the effects of my mistake... since it's made then i should be prepare for the worst now... and my prediction was right although i don't wish it would be... anyway it'd happen so there's nothing i could do and wish happiness... i've seen things much open and much lightly since young... humans believe what they see but they wouldn't feel what is the truth/meaning behind it... they believe what's close to them leaving out others... when soft don't works than only when they experience it then they would feel the pain... i couldn't do much to help when that person wouldn't believe and trust me... leaving me tearing in a corner writing this blog... i would remember that promise...

well my plan now is to bring those to work towards their results and bring them forward... i couldn't stay silent any longer, letting them to their fall... my weakness is leaving thing that there were... it's time again to bring part of me out for the reaching hands...

not only trust but is being honest and understanding...

*SMS me if you want morning call to school...