i'm running off, Escaping...

hi readers! well, i'm sorry didn't update regularly... didn't have any mood for this post either...

went out at night looking back to the past... but didn't felt anything to amend it for...

i hope the word would never be someone but name instead... it'd would never happen right? yea... i thought that too... i will keep improving till the day i was look upon...


we can't decide what would come fore to us, but we can decide what is here for us...

now i came to decide...

when the day of second, where the sun lights went off...

i would had shift my blog to else where...

somewhere off from the sight of someone...

the voices still not yet to yell for me...

the feelings still wouldn't turn to me...

i'm somebody never the more than that...


this is the table i used to sit...


under the void deck of my old missed house...


a MUST go place when i'm feeling down~ looks empty and windy ^^



知足


怎么去拥有 一道彩虹

怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风

天上的星星 笑地上的人

总是不能懂 不能觉得足够


如果我爱上 你的笑容

要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有

如果你快乐 不是为我

会不会放手 其实才是拥有


当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空

为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动

终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头

才发现 笑着哭 最痛


那天你和我 那个山丘

那样的唱着 那一年的歌

那样的回忆 那么足够

足够我天天 都品尝着寂寞


一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空

为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动

终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头

才发现 笑着哭 最痛


如果我爱上 你的笑容

要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有

如果你快乐 不是为我

会不会放手 其实才是拥有


知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛

what has come is to accept...

hi readers... didn't update because went over to deston house last night~

he was suppose to come my house and clean our bicycles together! he forgot already!!

i was cleaning my bicycle alone felt abit lonely... so i decide to go over his house...

i'm soooooo good right? still helped him to clean his bicycle too... went to eat after then and we get caught in the rain~ so i stayed over at his house LOL...

sleeping at his house use would have weird dreams... this time i was like looking for someone at an old house... yep~ that someone

went to look for aunties at mac~ same as always, asking the same question... like whenever i met somebody it will always have this question... all i have to say is...
A good guy in your view doesn't mean a Good BF in others view...

it feel sucks being asked... i didn't want to be single too...

alright i'm stopping liao... good night...



what do you seek reading my blog?
yet you felt i was saying to you?
are you hoping i'm saying to you?
i have never mention who i loved.

if you didn't want to see,
then why were you looking?
if you hate me inside,
why do you still bother about?
ask yourself truthfully,
what are you really seeking for?
Chasing? Running? Avoiding?
what's the point when you avoid your feelings?
what's the point for Running from past?
what's the point of Chasing after an image?


love wasn't to die for her
die protecting her?
die to grant her wish?
die for her happiness?

love was to live for her
live to protect her
live to see her wish come true
live to give her happiness

to protect her i must live on...
to live on watching every steps reaching her goal...
to live on giving the best for just her smile...
to live on being together as long as the life that was given...


My Answer - Seamo
Ima dekinakute mo aseranaide awatenaide
(Even if you can't do it now, don't stress, don't give up.)

Kimi no MY PACE de jibun shinjite yukkuri ikeba ii
(Just go at your own pace, and have confidence in yourself.)

konoyo wa hitosu jinawa de wa Ikanai sore wa nazenara
(No one ever said life was easy, you know.)

Kamisama ga tsukutta TEST dakara muzukasii nda
(God made it tough because it's all part of His Test)

Bunkei Rikei Mushiru doutoku Kimi nara kore o dou toku
(With are? Science? Ethices? How will you sovle it?)

Kore wa marude jinsei Dakara uchikomu shinken ni
(you got to take it seriously, That's what life is all about.)

Bokura wa nayamu mayou Nando mo jibun ni toikakeru
(We worry, we wonder, we second guess ourselves.)

Hitoysu janai kotae segashi Gamushara ni oikakeru
(There's no one right answer, so keep pushing forawrd and look for yours.)

Ima dekinakute mo aseranaide awatenaide
(Even if you can't do it now, don't stress, don't give up.)

Kimi no MY PACE de jibun shinjite yukkuri ikeba ii
(Just go at your own pace, and have confidence in yourself.)

Sora yo umi yo kimi mo onaji you ni nayanderu no kai
(i ask the sky and sea, do you wonder like me too?)

Kaze yo taiyou kimi mo hito shirezu naite iru no kai
(i ask the wind and Sun, Do you cry without anyone noticing too?)

Osoreru koto wa nai yo shippai sono tsugi ga shoubu WE FIGHT
(There's nothing to get nervous about, it's just another battle WE FIGHT.)

Kizu darake no touuan ga iki ta akashi sou nanda
(I'm already full of scrathes everywhere but it's just the way of life.)

Haji o kai te mo kesa nai de tsukawa naide keshigomu
(Just keep drawing your life there's no need to use an eraser.)

Mushiro hitotsu hitotsu no omoio nejikomu
(you just need on goal.)

Bokura wa nayamu mayou Nanado mo jibun ni toikakeru
(We worry, we wonder, we second guess ourselves.)

Hitoysu janai kotae segashi Gamushara ni oikakeru
(There's no one right answer, so keep pushing forawrd and look for yours.)

Ima dekinakute mo aseranaide awatenaide
(Even if you can't do it now, don't stress, don't give up.)

Kimi no MY PACE de jibun shinjite yukkuri ikeba ii
(Just go at your own pace, and have confidence in yourself.)

Hakushi no kami ni mirai wo kaki konde
(i write on a blank piece of paper what it would be like in the future.)

Sono pende ten wo sende musubu
(But no one really knows the truth.)

Kimi dake no ansaa
(That's you need your answer.)

Mirai no boku nara imo no boku ni oshiete agerareru
(if i were from the future then i could tell the present me that)

Kimi no doryoku ga jishin ni Kawaru toki made oitsudzukereba ii
("Change your hard work into confidence and keep trying until you reach that goal.")

Ima dekinakute mo aseranaide awatenaide
(Even if you can't do it now, don't stress, don't give up.)

Kimi no MY PACE de jibun shinjite yukkuri ikeba ii
(Just go at your own pace, and have confidence in yourself.)

The one i choose...

Hi~ dear readers! was back home late at night at 3 am! send roti prata to li jia house then send deston home~ a little shag~ but didn't sleep but watch movie till 4am >.< just couldn't help it LOL!

i could company people but who would company me? haiiez~

i didn't love you for i was lonely...
i didn't love you for a need to...
i didn't love you for your looks...
i didn't love you for your characters...

But, i choose to love you because you're the one...
i see present and the future with you...
u're imperfect but perfection was what i see...
i seek for you and just the only you in me...

call me when you're feeling down,
as i would listen to you while my soul is there with you,
as my body would try reaching you if possible was there.
i would never let you be alone whenever you needed me.
Don't cry my love, i'll be there...

Today went to johor shopping with Mom, Dad and younger sis! woke up at 8am siar o.O of course we took our own sweet time preparing LOLz... and went off at 9am~

we're taking bus to johor today!~ it been years since then... was always been driving to malaysia than taking bus there...

maybe i'll take my license soon so i could drive to malaysia to shop! good idea? can also bring GF go shop shop eh?! hahaz... but i also intend to get a boat license too!

which one should i take first? it's rather difficult to run 2 test at once... maybe i should start of getting a popper part-time first...

didn't sleep much~ having lots of pimples >.< plus my burned skin hasn't finish peeling off after a week~ omg my room have to be cleaned everyday~

okay stopping here for the day as will be calling deston over my house to maintain our bicycles! LOL~ i'll try posting tomorrow as i couldn't promise i could...

(planning to have a fitness timetable out by wed! IPPT coming liaos >.< and also ICT dec sia... i want my bed! sobz...)

ON BUS! it's the malaysia bus... larger than singapore public bus~


i would be where i could be LoL... not the best nor the worst...
(sister brought this lame book sia...)


so this is "Ice dipped Yuan yang" =.= and ice coffee...


Chicken roll of thousand island... taste good!


dad's curry udon =.= looks bad but taste quite okay...


MINE MINE! XO fried rice... Taste good...
(but i remember eating this somewhere in singapore...)


Sister's order... forget what it is... but also taste alright~


Dad and Mom~
(mom didn't order anything but steal our food >.< )


like kanna forced to smile LOL!


Er... didn't take this 1 because it we forgot by the taste of it LOL!
(guess what it was? LOL!)

what's this to you?

Well not gonna do the lyrics for My Answer nor post any photo~

I WAN A CAMERA!!!

today never go out or played any games =.= watch old old movies from movie stars... and something to be proud of! i didn't spent a single cent for 2 weeks! *claps claps*

working 2 more weeks for linda and i'm outta the circle of promoters... maybe i very fan jian want to do work that could be a little more moving about using strength and brains rather than waiting just to serve...

if you think i very fan jian please leave 1 comment on this post! LOL!

i'm looking for some new song, if you have some to recommend please contact me!

going to have dinner with des at jalan kayu o.O didn't eat today~ well, didn't look for him about 3 weeks le ba lol!

okay stopping here liao... tomorrow not going fishing >.< lonely man~


Death? what's to be afraid for?
the aging cames to death?
the sickness before death?
the happiness you didn't want to end before death?
the wealth you didn't spent before death?
the pain of the injury before death?

to me it's was not even worth to be afraid of~
but it's the loves one after my death...
i wont ever want to leave my partner...

YaDa! i hate to be alone...

sorry readers~ didn't have the mood of posting the blog... well, didn't had the feel today either but still i'm doing it >.< not for readers or anyone but just doing it for no reason...

i'm always doing things without anybody knowing or any reason... just think if it's no business with anyone then no problem doing it... i would never be close to anyone... if anything ever happen to me, i don't want them to remember me...

now, not anymore... i want just someone to know i'm here for... at least i'm alive with...

here are the over due post~ LOL!

didn't went out this few days because my burned skin is damn terrible... and resting at home not feeling well...

21 Sep 2009
woke up feeling whole body was burned... well, heck it and watch some show~ even the wind from the fan feels so hot and painful on my skin >.< sun-burn even though my skin wasn't off since sentosa...

20 Sep 2009
was a little tired from the BBQ yet woke up at 7am just to go fishing~ patience training for me? Nande? joke sia...

i was roasting myself in the sun because yesterday actually had earth quake at thailand and due to that not much fish would bite... we didn't read the news and was like idiot fishing on hari raya LOL!

well i did lots of strength training too LOL! pulling the anchor most of the time haha...

didn't expect my uncle to come with us~ because he was suppose to be in USA working... i had a good chat with him making lots of jokes about the fish that are poison...

puffer fish = BALL BALL FISH
(when they puff it will looks like a ball[i got a 3kg before~ totally must cut away the line...])
eel = Good game fish
(they will keep rolling with the fishing lines making u have to cut it...)
shark or catfish = Expressway fish
(because they always swim at wide area...)
stone fish = GEEGEE fish
(because it makes a sound like GEEGEE when u remove the hooks...)

when we're heading back dad hit a rock that couldn't be seen and we went pass that area lots of time... he broke the Fin of the motor~ $500+ gone LOL! lucky not i drive... luckily we have spare on board...

police checked on us at night >.< bo liao sia... waste our time... just because there's a boat with Da Ren Wu just 30 meters away from out boat...

went home like a roasted pig~ and body was burning so hot that my thermometer shows 37.6 degree! not really having a fever but sun-burn so badly~ LOLz

(Sumanai... some photos didn't rotate...)
there there... the Captain's Wheel! LOL...


Back View on board... (you see, there's no place to walk on at the sea...)


Front View form far~


19 Sep 2009
YEP~ was on BBQ on Sat with cousin~ didn't take any photo since i didn't had a good camera...

well, i was hoping some cousin from malaysia could attend this but they doesn't seems free...

it'd rained! anyway i bet they sure had lots of fun building a tent over a pit LOL! that's insane~ we all did put in some effort to make it perfect...

the food was nice~ i would recommand you guys to try www.bbqwholesale.com! but to warn you not to buy their small stuff like fork,spoon or ETC because it's quite expensive...

Miss those days didn't we? especially grandma...


Singapore cousin outing day! only 1 didn't turn up (Yan Xin!)
LOL... almost 3/4 brought their partners~ (LOH SIM YEE! where is yours?)
bloody hell, few of them really did ask question i didn't wanted to hear...


Family~ (Younger sister, Father, Me, Mother, Elder sister and her BF~)